11/5/06 evening

Again I was place in ICA... again thanks God I have the same helpers with me..
Gem, I dun think I can cope if I need to do so many things in time... I really need help.. that is my limitation ready.. Dilute drugs, changes, hourly assessment ++++

I think my health is not very good , no stamina, no strength, I think because too long din do excercise since NAFA test over.... the ony exercise I like to do is swimming , cycling, but always no chance.. this time is having slight back ache due to the mattress that so thin...never sleep on thin mattress.. sometimes I wonder those Japanese and Korean why not feel backache since they all sleep on the floor.. mayb their bone is "special"... haha..

That day I also not too late to go home, thanks for them...hope to meet them up oneday when they are all my senior again after graduate..

Nantha ask me and encourage me to go further study advance dip and so...
I also wish to further study but there are worries, wat I can do is let the Lord lead to show me my path...

reflect back after my form five five years ago,
I also pray about it.. N or D? Thanks God for preparing N for me .. I know is tough, really tough... a lot of challenges and hardwork...I experience a lot of tears and shoots too... but I am proud of wat I am and the profession... I know and treat it as a learning and training point of my life.... because I was in comfort zone... my parents are very doting me and I never understand wat is hardship until I step into working life to learn own a living, how u use ur physical strength and ability and sweat to earn money and save money ... to train a person like me is not easy, yes I am sturbborn, but now I am not so stubborn, yes , more receptive and more alert, as Jen said and realise

N is wat I wish to do something to help and care and I can finish study and earn a living from there.. and is one of purpose of life.. Hopefully wat I learn and train will not be wasted, to fulfilled one of the purpose

Thanks God from guiding me through, without God , mayb I am study at somewhere else and not in Singapore and perphaps I will miss goodfriends and special one in life, every decision hopefully is doing God's way and in God's will... being obedient is not easy for a stubborn ppl like me... but God know how to

the next lap...still praying for it... decision really not easy.. but one thing I sure I wanna focus in dance ministry