25/5/06 Thursday, final decision made ,now I realised u are right, I'm just nothing.

Today wake up around 9 plus, try to go for medical checkup earlier as expected long queve, but when I try to put on make up , it take me so long... lack of experience.. all these are to cover the acne marks...I like the eye shadow that put on blue, look neater and not like sick ppl..hate to make up actually, many of the people make up either they like it or they not confident in their look...so I am the second type of person this time... but outcome not bad still like it but it really wasting time..

I went for medical check up, X-ray, draw blood, they said HR ppl will contact us... I still praying for the PR .. Dun want to waste the $200... recently really used up a lot of vit M.. gonna save save save...

Went to visit my aunt at salon, my third aunt will undergoing bone marrow aspiration this time.. what she share with me really shocked me with her faith, very strong
"Are u afraid?" I asked
She said,
" Why should I afraid, all lean on God, even is the timing I gonna go , God will bring me to Heaven."
Her faith is so strong......even shocked me....she will going to visit my grandmum before she doing that procedure..
My aunt is a free thinker or non-believerbefore that, but now she trust in God. Amen

In some circumstances, God will whisper and draw near to you. You will learnt and draw near even more.


I finally met Siew Hui, she is ike working gal now, but still remain as cheerful and positive.. my best friend.. This Hillsong CD is meant to u... thanks God!!Hope will motivate and encourage u all the times..

chatting about recent life and talk about our old friends, future plan., vit M matter... anyway I will give u my support whatever u decision is but I will gonna miss u a lot if u are not in Singapore again...

This song when asked me to listen, is it the meaning that you intend to tell me, but I am too stupid because I always will misunderstood so I just think that u want me to listen a nice song, but I really happy and touch when u want me to listen it...

枫
Feng
Maple
作词：宋健彰(弹头)Zuo Ci: Song Jian Zhang (Dan Tou)Lyricist: Song Jian Zhang (Bullet)
作曲：周杰伦Zuo Qu: Zhou Jie LunComposer: Jay Chou

乌云在我们心里搁下一块阴影
wu yun zai wo men xin li ge xia yi kuai yin ying
Dark clouds cast a patch of shadow over our hearts

我聆听沉寂已久的心情
wo ling ting chen ji yi jiu de xin qing
I listen closely to the feelings that have long been silenced

清晰透明
qin xi tou ming
Distinct and transparent

就像美丽的风景
jiu xiang mei li de feng jing
Just like a beautiful landscape

总在回忆里才看的清
zong zai hui yi li cai kan de qing
That can only be clearly seen in one’s memories

被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
bei shang tou de xin neng bu neng gou ji xu ai wo
Can a heart that’s been thoroughly wounded keep on loving me?

我用力牵起没温度的双手
wo yong li qian qi mei wen du de shuang shou
I work hard to pull up a pair of warmth-less hands

过往温柔
guo wang wen rou
A gentleness that came and went

已经被时间上锁
yi jing bei shi jian shang suo
Has already been locked by time

只剩挥散不去的难过
zhi sheng hui san bu qu de nan guo
All that’s left are grievances that cannot be waved apart

缓缓飘落的枫叶像思念
huan huan piao luo de feng ye xiang si nian
Longing is like a maple leaf, slowly drifting downwards

我点燃烛光温暖岁末的秋天
wo dian ran zhu guang wen nuan sui mo de qiu tian
I ignite a candle to warm this year-end’s autumn

极光掠夺天边
ji guan lue duo tian bian
The aurora steals the horizon

北风掠过想你的容颜
bei feng lie guo xiang ni de rong yan
The north wind flits across, thinking of your appearance

我把爱想成了落叶
wo ba ai xiang cheng le luo ye
I think of love as a falling leaf

却换不回熟悉的那张脸
que huan bu hui shu xi de na zhang lian
But I cannot trade back that familiar face

缓缓飘落的枫叶像思念
huan huan piao luo de feng ye xiang si nian
Longing is like a maple leaf, slowly drifting downwards

为何挽回要赶在冬天来之前
wei he wan hui yao gan zai dong tian lai zhi qian
Why does this retrieval have to happen before winter comes?

爱你穿越时间
ai ni chuan yue shi jian
My love for you transcends time

两行来自秋末的眼泪
liang hang lai zi qiu mo de yan lei
Two lines of tears that fell for the end of autumn

让爱渗透了地面r
ang ai shen tou le di mian
Has let love completely permeate the surface of the earth

我要的只是你在我身边
wo yao de zhi shi ni zai wo shen bian
The only thing I want is for you to be at my side

被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
bei shang tou de xin neng bu neng gou ji xu ai wo
Can a heart that’s been thoroughly wounded keep on loving me?

我用力牵起没温度的双手
wo yong li qian qi mei wen du de shuang shou
I work hard to pull up a pair of warmth-less hands

过往温柔
guo wang wen rou
A gentleness that came and went

已经被时间上锁
yi jing bei shi jian shang suo
Has already been locked by time

只剩挥散不去的难过
zhi sheng hui san bu qu de nan guo
All that’s left are grievances that cannot be waved apart

在山腰间飘逸的红雨
zai shan yao piao yi de hong yu
That rain of red floating halfway down between the mountains

随著北风凋零
sui zhe bei feng diao ling
Are scattered with the north wind

我轻轻摇曳风铃
wo qing qing yao ye feng ling
I gently sway the windchime

想唤醒被遗弃的爱情
xiang huan xing bei yi qi de ai qing
Attempting to awaken an abandoned love

雪花已铺满了地
xue hua yi pu man le di
Snowflakes have already covered the ground

深怕窗外枫叶已结成冰
shen pa chuang wai feng ye yi ji cheng bing
Dreading that the maple leaves outside the window have turned to iceberg

Jay Chou- Feng MV




I need to make decision which really very hard, this kind of feeling I think only Des. and God will know...

When I met u, I am just a mushroom head, still try to figure out the new environment and life, a special guy, in sharp eye when I entered the room seeing me, I din dare to look at u ... U are different ... look unfriendly... Better stay away

but one day this fellow, singing "God please save, save me- shen a jiu jiu wo from chen xiao chun" then I changed my impression on him... he is funny, he not so unfriendly.. He looked like very sad but dunno why , when he sang lang hua yi duo duo with friends, I think they all "xiao-CRAZY " le.. but that day was very fun .. because they are very entertaining...

when we sat in round , HEY, u say a few times sorry because U knocking at my baby guitar, but I feel a bit pity for u when U can' join us as U really fast learner...

then dunno where the courage come from I can have the confident being with you...
I can tell u the "transparent ATAP" in ice kacang is my favourite


歌曲：勇气
歌手：梁静茹
歌词内容： 词:光良 曲:瑞业

终于做了这个决定
别人怎么说我不理
只要你也一样的肯定
我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易
我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃

爱真的需要勇气
来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定
我爱你的意义(我的爱就有意义)
我们都需要勇气 去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你
放在我手心 你的真心


如果我的坚强任性
会不小心伤害了你
你能不能温柔提醒
我虽然心太急
更害怕错过你
yong qi




but I do afraid it like a firework... vanished very fast.....
because I am wrong...

歌曲：爱，很简单
歌手：陶喆

忘了是怎么开始
也许就是对你一种感觉
忽然间发现自己 已深深爱上你 真的很简单

david tao - ai hen jian dan


When oneday , I realised I am wrong in a way
and u are tired of listening the centre part of my life and u found it actually u just like me not the love ..

suddenly I feel I lost something... that kind of feeling..my heart like a shattered glass really painful.. and God take a very long time slowly amend it pieces and pieces

silent - jay chow




If " an jing" is the song u want to express the feeling
and I can tell u I will also choose that song
because I am really sad , really sad.. I tried very hard, but the door maintained close
because of my disobedient
and I am wrong

U do still surrounded by many beautiful cuties I can see,
Perphaps I just an extra, I feel u dun need me at all
Decision made, take care.

I believe God has the plan meant for everyone of us,
And God will prepare the best for us
Take care. dun think will see again.