23-30 th August 2006

23, 24, 25 th August2006

These three days work night shift in ICA
more comfortable and not so stress compare to room 8
watching TV and surfing net still doing the old things
remembered a woman with confused pulled out her IA line , the blood was like a fountain shoot up as I heard before and this is the first time I witness , splash on my jacket also, then quickly stop the blood, she is ok, but she does not listen to advice, becaue of confuse talking herself thru the night , others including me listen her conversation thru the night
sometimes I wonder if I become her age , wat would I be...
this make me want to enjoy my youngster age even more but with meaning on it

25th ,my last lesson with Sister Tan Siok Bee.. she is the very Good person which motivate me to become like her, she is kind , knowledgeable , full with compassion and smart.. so this is the end of my two months course, now waiting to prepare my test which fall on 29 of sept.. oh no .. study.. sian...my assessment haven't done...tasks again



26 , 27th August
I went home to JB meet my aunt third aunt and my grand ma, grand pa, having dinner with my cousin xiao yin, min, wat a good gathering..after my sleep hours
I'm sad that xiao yin going abroad soon, but quite worry for her, hope that she is fine and can accept God, who knows, this might be God purpose as can away from influence..
but all depends on her what kind of friends she make, worry that she join in wrong company


28, 29th August
I work afternoon then morning the next day
ICA busy with the bed 4, pass to kenan, unable to finish on time so stay back and do my things
the ext morning work as junior with my friends .. haha... I am glad that I am a junior , not so tough with a lot of N. A students help me, I thanks for the lecturer and the lecturer thanks me for giving opportunity.. haha.. she is nice ..reminded my aim for this line as lecturer.. but i not good in communicating with sisters all these .. and not really like..
I like to share wat I know.. sometimes I feel satisfaction from here...quite happy with it when the students understand. but need to be a good role model

29 th tuesday, sad that I can't go again for dance ministry, and cannot join for prison ministry outreach.. sometimes I feel oh no.. I wasting of a lot of time..din do so something useful and only face tv or surfing net to keep my thought away, dun have that kind of mood to do things

Han lend me two korean show.. we are korean drama fans.. haha... cheers!!

Actually these few days I can't really sleep well, J always been so nice to me even I said that to him... but I know if he keep on like this will gonna get hurt..I know all the while where my heart is.. that's y I said to forget a person is not easy , mayb need a long time, mayb forever..
but I feel like find out wat W answer..

must bring out my courage..