9/8/06 to 11/8/06

9/8/06 wed
today work night shift
morning went cold storage buy some daily stuff
then sleep awhile
till night time work, today I pray in heart , hopefully everything fine because I will waork with L
the most person I dun feel like work with and she will condemn those person she dun like, yar I'm one of it.. but recently she treat me not bad..still feel ok
but when I work with her today, I din dare ask her regards the priming of ICP transducer and the end she said I dun understand a simple commant and mess up with the hemoport. well, I dun feel like argure back as I respect her, well, she simply blame me for all the things said I mess up with the things she ask me to do...

Well, I take a deep breath and swallow, yar my pt is ICA status, so I gonna help u more... this is wat I think.. but when she just blame on me for the things that not come out smoothly make me feel like keep away myself from her, she just wanna find fault on me
And I realised she really condemn me and dislike me although she pretend in front of me


the rest of time, she just treat me ok...pretend and belanja me her bread.. as entertain her I just accept , this is my beginning of my mistake...



10/8/2006
Telecaster
I wake up 3 plus because today I have course
I attended the course till 6.30pm then can't really find a place to sleep so I rest a corner of staff room which is dark and comfortable to rest...
Overheard the comments that this L say out loud in front of my other senior and sis Z.. comment ppl like " no worth any cent", well realised she is not aware of my present , she say like I am not a ordinary human at all,blame me said I messed up all things and telecast for the yesterday mistake, sis Z know my present she said L should sayang me, but can imagine she said I got eat the food that L bought for me, L did bought food for me...
Aunty B realised I am there , wanna stop her by hinting to my other senior, "L" not realised keep on going and going... my other senior which more understanding keep quiet while hearing her shooting on me...
suddenly I feel disgust and want to puke when I realise how HYPOCRASY a person like her
Seeing ppl like that changed my mind of ppl

I was totally hurt by her words , ya..
Eveybody was shocked when realised I am a corner when they want to walk out the staff room...
U can imagine how shock she is when she saw me..

I pray in heart dun hate her,
but at the moment I can't just
I gonna pray more for forgiving
I really can't work with her anymore
I ask God how?
Then when I walk out I thanks God that I was at ICA no need to face her and work with her, that they change room, I feel relieve I worked In ICA
the pt only one and I have the time to cool myself down
Joan and Kak RaseDh comfort me, and I realise I am not alone.. alot ppl give me encouragement and support, Joan give me a special edition of Daily Bread edition, I read it during the night
I thanks God for the Wonderful love

middle of night "L" invite me to eat the porridge that she bought for eveyone and I say I dun want . she know y
yes, I can 't have it and I can't face this type of hypocrate ppl.. wat a Danger that kena cucuk any time,

11/8/06 Friday
Morning I went for course again , this time went to Gamma Knife Centre for a visit
on the way, saw a forty plus woman tripped and fall infront of us at the staircase along the road as it is drizzling the road is very slippery, she is helpless , her tears keep on rolling down, because she sprain her ankle... she is helpless ... she refuse to see Dr and ask somebody to bring her home.. realised that she was a breadwinner and she is a taxi driver and her husband just partially recover from stroke and her only son is <21 years old unable to drive her home, by struggling ,she cripple and walk herself together with her husband and son towards the taxi....Actually the scene was very sad, the family wanna weep in front of us while seeing the mother sprained the leg.............

This is reality, is very sad,
health is important, money is also important , but God is the most important because God know our needs before us..


I went back home 12.30pm and sleep till start to do night shift again, thanks God, I work in ICA as I change with Melanie, at least no need to face L
I thanks Mel for that
2 pt...Melissa inspire me of taking advance Dip..She really made me think again... because of my plan .....
I dunno feel confuse.. pray to God to make my mind clear because is a very important decision.. I need to consider my financial, my future, my education progress, my health whether can take it or not , future opporturnity etc...
God plese lead me