Zhu ni xing fu

~~~~~A dark cloud descends upon the fallen paladin. As he is awoken by the tiny splatters of rain, he opens his eyes and wonder why is he here.Memories of the battle in Aplusa still carved in he restless mind. The tiny droplets began to form into bigger ones and as the splatter finally began to hurt, he closed his eyes and fell into a deep slumber.A blinding light greeted him as he came to. Sounds from a nearby caravan poured into his ears and he was greeted by a sweet voice.“You’re up.”“Welcome to my humble home,” the voice continued, “here’s some tea.”He sat up and took notice of a face, full of grace and a smile with warm embrace.“Thank you.” ~~~~~~~~~~~~~


Thank you if u ever thought of me, at least I know

After a month plus, finally blog again
Within this month of December , there are some changes in my life

Fallen paladin is the first that I've met which meant so much to me
Only a short memory that we have together but I already fall too deep in it
because of like and love is different, because still not committed, because of belief and value is different, because of u never choose me
this is how the story end

Has the thought that once I met the first guy will treat him the best and ever made up mind always accompany this person till the end of time
Ever soak in the world of a ordinary girl when met a prince charming
but the fear and insecurity in it is so strong
afraid that the happiness in hand that slip away in shortly
And yes, the most thinG I worried really happened as I afraid the most


Fallen paladin sure know I 've try my very best to save it
I really tried , but the reality hit me once and once again
is hurt because Fallen paladin did not move and never tried
is hurt because Fallen paladin turn to others
is hurt because Fallen paladin do not know me
I prefer to stay on and wish the miracle will happen
mayb someday...we will accidently bump into somewhere oneday dramatically
mayb we will and mayb we will not

ever tried to step out to accept that guy that appeared to be a nice guy
stumble again when knowing this guy that really know what a insincererity and indecisive meant to be
Dissappoited and lost trust in all guys

Till the day I've found a warrior, as a gift of God
who bring me laughter and joy again since the day I lost it long long time ago
who accept me as who I am
This warrior is a bit special, our relationship is also special,
I know there are many challenges and stress ahead more than other couple that we need to face it together
is not to walk together for a few days or a few months or a few years
is to walk together for a life time we do hope
put in God's hand and lead us
and every problem and will appereared to be not a problem
love me and protect me whole heartedly
I shall love him and treassure him even more

Fallen paladin, I once love u.
Is Glad that u love again after the serious hit
"zhu ni xing fu"

I also will "xing fu"
take care~

17/12/06 Sunday Everything is possible in GOD

Today morning went to church , able to ask Qi Pei along..as she is been troubled and can't focus
She accompany me for the whole day, I hope she won't think of the issue anymore
the sermon is about stop using measuring tape to measure the limitation and weakness in us, and stop comparing each one of us with other people, because God has no limit, no boundaries, nothing is impossible to God, Everything is possible with God as long as the things is not opposition to God's word..Everything is possible in God

afternoon go and buy the stuff I needed, two tops tank,one teeshirt, a pair of socks, just bought this stuff need to spend two hours for searching, so slow

4pm for dance rehearsal, then together ahead to Paragon... whole team involved
6pm we reached there, the location is at in front of Paragon... is the Christmas Event
so excited to serve Lord again

Our theme is " Lord I love YOU"
altogether plus rehearsal I think four time.. yeepee
Jen, yenteng , Michelle, Des, Kai, Tiffy, Esther, Winnie, Ken ,Ardi, Qi pei, me and Catherine are in one team, Hooray, Praise the Lord!!

this is the time we can talk a lot of things while waiting for the rain to stop , thanks God , God has the timing

Sunbeam and Rhythm of praise also fantastic.. Is LOUD
after that we have our dinner at Spagetti then we went home after that

this is the day I feel so fruitful..
Initially I dunno know how to dance is because:
Dance, by God grace
Dance, because of God

Power of Your Love

Lord, I come to You
Let my heart be changed, renewed
Flowing from the grace
That I’ve found in You
And Lord, I’ve come to know
The weaknesses I see in me
Will be stripped away
By the power of Your love
Hold me close
Let Your love surround me
Bring me near
Draw me to Your side
And as I wait
I’ll rise up like the eagle
And I will soar with You
Your Spirit leads me on
In the power of Your love
Lord, unveil my eyes
Let me see You face to face
The knowledge of Your love
As You live in me
Lord, renew my mind
As Your will unfolds in my life
In living every day
In the power of Your love

back to Singapore.......

no internet, no msn, no chance to blog
mayb this is the time I need to pick up my books aim for Jan
can I make it? Jia you ba

Annual leave sunday

Sunday, went to church
finally can gather with my khakis, Yee An,Victor, Zai Wei, Ei Ling, at Lavender Jusco after so long
Hope next time Ma Li can join us next time for drink.
Reminded to follow up with Jesher, must remember sotong!!

20/11/06-25/11/06 trip back to Alor Setar

My annual leave...
start on 20/11/06
went back to Alor Setar to visit my grandpa
my aunt, dad , mum, sis and me, five of us are this trip travellers
the whole journey up to Alor setar is around 12 hours in the car
My dad is superb driver,Thanks God for Journey mercy
this is the time we spent most for being together .. that's y people said if u want to rebuild a relationship or have close bonding , travelling will be a good idea
talking, laughing , ZZZZ like pig all the way, very boring, but true. is a moment when a family gather
and this is the time for me to think , I am a thinker, think too much, a day dreamer, dream too much
After the trip, I more clearer in mind. ME, Jia you ba !!

Stopped at My aunt place at Keroh, nice to know Amber, their Chin wa wa superb fierce, barking wholeday..the lemon chicken is so cute.. too bad I din take the photo

Have this experience in staying this old hotel really scary..
dun feel like taking pic.

A big gathering for my mum's family , I hope she is happy. :)

My brother car bumped into another car in JB while we are travelling to Alor Setar , the front of car out of shape but thanks God he is ok.Thanks God for keeping him safe

Nice view

this is a oil paint that attract my attention in a clinic, is not dull, is live

Along the Journey

this is the padi field...at Alor setar

can u see the fountain at the mountain?

this is the best !! At Ipoh , Malaysia. the best beancurt, wanna try??

this is the REAL Ipoh hor fun, at Ipoh

I went back to Alor Setar , Kedah, during my annual leave.. this is a very interesting and creative toy that I came across , when u pull the ball, the neck of chickens will facing downward and hit the grass and create some sounds

I did pray about it, and I always pray about it....

Dear, do u know how I wish I am the light that shine into ur life , brighten ur day, and the sky no longer gray
just like the question that I used to ask before," Did I brightened ur life?"
I did pray about it and I always pray about it...




Free Willy, He is the guy that always in my heart

12/11/06 Saturday - that day

My house have vistors, Sok theng ,Lina,Sir Tan staying with us for a short period
Sy Hoi sharing room with me

Rncently, I went out with X thinking mayb he like me more then I could like him a bit
and stop thinking about Free Willy for these 6 years that He might find me irritating
I finally try to step out


I am wrong, gonna reflect and repent
this step out,realised I am wrong, I think is hurting myself and hurting other
found out to like a person, is really hard actually
how can two person be together without a "real liking" in emotion instead of like physically
I feel like this is really flirting
and no sincere and not real at all
Is not far to go, there is no end

The password that X given is incorrect
even Sy Hoi know about my password without I disclosed to her, Sy Hoi really know what I want
I'm Glad that Free Willy treat me truely
a real like is hard to find , a real love there is no more
true.
Finally I agree with u.

Only God that is love to me.

11/11/06 Friday

I work morning at ICA , well is very busy two transfer out during my time
the changing rate is very fast
sometimes if really to busy I cannot really cope
but thanks God my pt are still stable

On 8-11-06 night- stress release night

On 8/11/06 Wed
the next day I still got audit
I went out with Qi Pei and Roy for dinner and walk around
Is happy to know that they are get together at last
dun worry Qi Pei, Roy is keen to know God
What you need to do is PRAY lo

that day, I bought a picture bible
Is interesting with nice pics on it
thinking can give it to my sis when she grow older as I promised her last time her birthday present
I bought a bookmark for myself with psalm 91 on it that really comfort me..
God really know my problems that hidden inside me that no one understand

Psalm 91 (New International Version)
New International Version (NIV)
Copyright © 1973, 1978, 1984 by International Bible Society
Psalm 91
1 He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. [a]
2 I will say [b] of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust."
3 Surely he will save you from the fowler's snare and from the deadly pestilence.
4 He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
5 You will not fear the terror of night, nor the arrow that flies by day,
6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday.
7 A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand, but it will not come near you.
8 You will only observe with your eyes and see the punishment of the wicked.
9 If you make the Most High your dwelling— even the LORD, who is my refuge-
10 then no harm will befall you, no disaster will come near your tent.
11 For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways;
12 they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
13 You will tread upon the lion and the cobra; you will trample the great lion and the serpent.
14 "Because he loves me," says the LORD, "I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
15 He will call upon me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life will I satisfy him and show him my salvation."

this is a meaningful verse to me
when the timing is there, God want me to share this verse to Roy as he met some problems that make him so down
So I give him my bookmark, I'm happy that I can help him with this little bookmark
Hope he can make full use of it and remember God is always there for everyone of us no matter what and no matter how

8/11/06- 9/11/06

8/11/06 wed
I work morning as Junior after my off day after night
because there is an audit going on and I'm waiting my turn
haha..
sis said I din put lipstick.. hor.. actually I forget about it .. no image no image
when u working who bother ur hair is untidy or what
that day no audit...

9/11/06 Thurs
I work afternoon
at ICA still OK
but need to throw away my old habbit of din throw the plastic cover to dustbin, must remember that
KaK Rasedah just like my mom, point out my mistake but I appreciate that, Kak
Audit finally over... haha.. yeah, I din being called down ... thanks God !! Hooray

Jay Chou and yundi li