26/6/06 Monday

Today doing housechores then afterthat go home at JB by cab with Sy Hoi
She visit my house and we talk about career plan with mum finally
Now mum understand a bit at least
Xiao Yin came over after Sy Hoi left,
thinking to study at UWA but still do not know which course should choose
Hope she can choose the right one
gonna miss her

25/6/06 My hatch day-23 Y.O Birthday

whoo o~ today I work morning.. Sunday .. busy also..yesterday I can't go watch movie and join my batch girl because I working the nextday morning, Thanks Jon
Received msg, calls , greeting emails from Jia Hui, Hui Shan,Yu qin, Jon, Ching kai, Sy Hoi, Siew Hui,Siew Fern, Xian Xiang, Min min and gugu's, zhiyu, my batch girl + colleagues,Jajar , kenan, seniors(L, Ramani,salina, zhu, rasedah)( Hui wen +her bf, yan xin, Lay Chin, Yuting) and June (same year, same date, same month birthday with me)
Recieved calls from Home, my dad, mum and sister's greeting

I was very touch that Melanie , she remembered my birthday and she greet me first at my working place..
I received a red rose from Ramani.. well, actually I like flower..=) heehee
Hui Wen and Lay chin brought a cake for me at the workplace, after finish work then brought back chocolate peppermint flavour, others, thank you very much
Got a box of sweet sweet chocolate from Kelly, she is sweet too... heehee

Today in this blessed day, wat I really very happy is I gain peace
Reconcilation with the person I have almost quarrel with last time
Both of us apologise to each other and we shake hand for friendship, and we start again from zero , thank you for the care bear you bought with jajar
Encouragement I gained today
This is the most happy and relieve moment
And God, Yes, God answered my prayer last time
Thank you Lord

night time went meet with Siew Hui,
Planning to go church but a bit too late
we took the neoprint with the fan blowing our hair up.. haha.. we try the latest and newest neoprint machine
Thank you for the beautiful chain and the verse that u given to me
I love it
this verse accompany me everyday because it remind me God is my shepherd and everything God in control
and I put it on my table
very nice eh~

at this period of time, I will never forget my holylight gang

Canon Rock×1.3

my Old~ post

Thursday, January 20, 2005

Interesting Article???
Hai, this is an article from email... is surprising .. well u never knoe until the end.. do enjoy..True story... very sad..A police officer had a beautiful daughter, who fell in love with a boy who was an ordinary poor person. When the gals father came to know about their love, he did not like it at all, and so began to protest about it. Now it happened that the two lovers left their homes for a happy future. the gals father started searching for the two lovers but they could not find them. At last, he accepted their love and asked them in a newspaper to come back. her father said that if u both come back i will marry u wit the guy u luv, I accept that u loved each other truly. So in this way their love won and the age old attitude of the tribe took a beating. The couple went to the city to shop for the wedding. He was wearing a white traditional dress, and was crossing the road when a car came and hit him and he died on the spot. The girl lost her senses. After a long time she recovered and accepted that her love has died. One night! she was sleeping in her home with her family. Her mother had a dream in which she saw a fairy. That fairy asked her mother to wash the blood spots of the guy from her daughter's clothes as soon as possible. But her mother ignored the dream. Next night the father saw the same dream, he also ignored it. Then when the girl had the same dream the next night,she woke up and told her mother about the dream. Her mother asked her to wash the clothes on which there were blood spots. She washed the spots but some remained. Next night she again had the same dream she again washed the spots but some still remained. Next night she again had the same dream and this time that fairy gave her last warning to wash the blood spots, else something terrible will happen. This time the girl tried her best to wash the spots, the clothes tore, but some spots still remained. In the evening on same day when she was alone, someone knocked the door, when she opened the door she saw the fairy at the door. She got very scared and fainted. The fairy woke her up..., and gave her an object, That awe-struck girl asked "what is this..? to which the fairy replied "..... Try Dynamo Liquid Soap... juz a dap & it will remove all stubborn stain ....."
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Do You believe In Miracles
Do You Believe In Miracles?FOR READING & MEDITATIION - MARK 6:45-56'Then he climbed into the boat with them, and the wind died down. They werecompletely amazed...' (v.51)For one more day we reflect on the moments when Jesus appeared to Hisdisciples walking on the water. The verse chosen as our text tells us thatthe disciples were amazed at what they had witnessed; they just could notunderstand what was going on. Eugene Peterson paraphrases part of today'sreading in this way: 'They didn't understand what he had done at thesupper. None of this had yet penetrated their hearts.'It says a great deal for the integrity of the Gospel writers that they soendearingly and honestly record the flaws and failures of the disciples.The fact that they did not understand what Christ had done at the feedingof the five thousand suggests they had not yet been won over completely tothe Saviour's mission, hence their further confusion at the Master'swalking on the water and His calming of the waves. We read 'their heartswere hardened' (v.52), and at that moment they were no different from someof the Lord's outright opponents (see Mark 3:5). Scepticism and rationalismstill seemed to play a strong part in the disciples' thinking even thoughthey had witnessed some most amazing events.There are many in today's Church who struggle over the issue of miracles.Let it be said right away that you cannot be a disciple of Jesus if you donot believe in miracles. C.S. Lewis commented, 'The mind which asks for anon-miraculous Christianity is a mind in process of relapsing fromChristianity into mere "religion".' Why are we reluctant to believe inmiracles? Conversion itself is a miracle. And when we become Christians weexperience one miracle after another. The power of Jesus exceeded therational abilities of His disciples. It always does.Lord Jesus Christ, forgive us if our hearts are so hardened by rationalismand scepticism that we cannot see that which is beyond the scope of ournatural minds. Help us dear Saviour. Amen.FURTHER STUDYLuke 24:36-47;1 Cor. 1:18-25;Heb. 3:12-14Hughes, Selwyn & Greenslade, Philip (Mar/Apr 2004) 'Every Day with Jesus',CWR Publishing, UK
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On Retreat with Jesus
On Retreat With JesusFOR READING & MEDITATIION -MARK 8:27-30'"But what about you?" he asked. "Who do you say I am?"' (v.29)Now we start to think about another situation in which we find our Lordteaching His disciples the meaning of discipleship. In the passage beforeus today Jesus is seen with His disciples near the cool and pleasant townof Caesarea Philippi which was on the northern boundary of Israel. Ineffect, He took them on 'retreat'. Drawing the disciples aside from thehustle and bustle of the crowds attracted by His ministry, Jesus asks themwhat people were saying about Him. They report the popular rumours sweepingthrough Galilee that a remarkable prophet had arisen or even beenreincarnated.It was not surprising that people had reached these conclusions. In someways Jesus behaved like prophets of Israel's history. What is more, Hismessage, like theirs, was a double-edged sword of both judgment and grace.And there can be no doubt that He Himself had a keen sense of following inthe prophetic tradition which He revealed when He first began to anticipatethe fate that awaited Him in Jerusalem (see Luke 13:33). There were manypeople then, as now, who were prepared to recognise Jesus as a prophet butwho were unable to see that He was more than a prophet.It's interesting that this matter was raised by Jesus in the vicinity ofCaesarea Philippi for history records that the town had been recently namedin honour of the Roman emperor and the local ruler, Philip, brother ofHerod Antipas. Its original name was Paneas because it hosted a shrine tothe Greek god Pan. Does Jesus fit into a pantheon of gods? The disciplesneeded to learn, as does the whole world, that Jesus doesn't belong in aclass alongside others. He belongs in a class all by Himself.Lord Jesus Christ, when will the world wake up to the fact that You aremore than a prophet? You are the eternal Son of God - true God of true God.I am so grateful that my eyes have been opened to that great and glorioustruth. Amen.FURTHER STUDYActs 2:22-24; 2:32-41; 10:36-43Hughes, Selwyn & Greenslade, Philip (Mar/Apr 2004) 'Every Day with Jesus',CWR Publishing, UK
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Obedient
ObedienceBy Os HillmanAs soon as you hear the sound of marching in the tops of the balsam trees, move out to battle. ~ 1 Chronicles 14:15aThe Philistines were attacking. David wanted to know how to respond. His first inquiry of God revealed that he was to attack the Philistines straightaway and God would give him victory. David followed God's instruction and gained victory. Shortly after, the Philistines mounted another attack. "So David inquired of God again, and God answered him, 'Do not go straight up, but circle around them and attack them in front of the balsam trees' " (1 Chron. 14:14). David was a well-trained warrior, a strategist. Yet, we find that David's dependence on God to direct his efforts was very great. In fact, after he won the first battle, he went right back to inquire again. This is the most important lesson we can learn from this story. God told David to attack, but only after he heard the marching in the balsam trees. How many times have you or I operated in the workplace based only on our skill and ability, without seeking to know the details of God's will in the matter? David could have simply assumed that since he had won the last battle, surely God would give him victory the same way. No. David had learned that communicating with the living God is the only sure way of victory. His skill was not enough. He had to have God's blessing. How many times have we worked in our work life the same way each time only because it was the way we did it last time? What if God has a better way? What if God has a different plan than ours? "So David inquired of God..." These are the important words that we are to learn from. We must be in such relationship with God that we are constantly inquiring of His mind on every matter. When we do this, we can expect the same results that David achieved-success in our endeavor and recognition by God."So David's fame spread throughout every land, and the Lord made all the nations fear him" (1 Chron. 14:17). This is the reward of obedience to God. We don't have to build a name for ourselves. God will see to it that we are honored for our obedience. He wants to make known those servants who are willing to obey Him at all costs.
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Saturday, December 25, 2004

25th DeC2004- Christmas DaE
Today went to church with my dad, mum, sista, brother and grandmum.. seeing a lot of old faces.. they said i look pretty with this hair color.. haha.. good things...6 months not back in church... feeling back home again.... the performance is great and unique.. singing all thetimes, wonderful and marvelous I wish to say... many differnt tone in choir... so marvelous... power kids show also successful...saw pei an with gf, saw yee an.. too bad, ma li is in KL cannot reach..saw song zan wif his gf.. saw victor.. saw pei wen.. saw many of my old church members...nvm, siew hui, next time I introduce u to them... they are friendly..The sharing of two xtraordinary ppl with god's power..1) a young guy sharing his testimonial about being met an accident and being push for a distance..his leg broke.. and undergo 13 times of operation ... he was small at that time 13 years.. wow.. a small kids that want to kick ball , running on the field, just like other kids asking y happened on him.. he realised that his family pray all the times and he win the battle under god's power...for this he stand out and share with us.. and thank god!!2)one of our church leader who has cancer still surviving until today although prognosis only 3 months since 21 years ago, he was thankful to god for winning this battle... he lost his wife .. left only his daughter... he said he has be joyful always.. god be with him.. everyone was amazing of his courage of standing out to share with us.. he is very ugly look , after for so many kind of different operations done on him on face.. he was known as smart and handsome when he was young.. he now dunhave gum and only one eye can see, he thanks god that he still can talk although dr predict that he cannot talk in future.. he said he blessed that god still give him a sharp eye sight although he has only one, a voice that still can talk and able to speak a language that audience that can understand.. he is joyful , isn't he??? I should learn from him!!!

Utada Hikaru - First Love(Final Fantasy X version)

I think this will be very nice video

Disney - Valentine

This is another song I looking for, finally I know the singer Martina McBride

Hero

after work, when I am tired, listen this song in the cab through radio 90.0..
I enjoyed it :)

I am a big big girl

When people grow up...

today slept till 10.55am...
then Sy Hoi shared with me wat Boon's opinion
Sy Hoi, Ching Kai, thank you so much, U all just like my beloved sister, brother
I am sure will grow up be a tough person one day

I taking a cab and the taxi uncle kind enough to share his romance story with his wife..
He and his wife started knowing each other since sec 1 till they married at age22
asking me why I go to beach road, and he said after his daughter married plan not to continue the study at SIM at age of 29, he said nowadays many youngster are not as pure as last time , more individualistic, has their own thinking,more polygamous..


I went to Raffles design school at beach road today looking up some info
the building is so class and the course is as "class" as the buiding
Meet the course consultant and give me some details of the course
seeing many of "Hip" people in.. all talented
In my heart thinking " yeah, they are rich people..

knowing the course is so " class"
my heart drop into the deep sea
another hit for me to start a new journey
If I study wat about my promise
I will be in debt too then how to fulfill my promise
being an eldest is not easy, there is a lot of things to think, there is something to let go too
I'm selfish????
Now I'm "batery low", I feel flat , I only have God .. and the message "Do not worry" repeated many time
My life , my future is a ? I still waiting for the answer
I need to be independent and must be independent because I know I must be..
I know next time I will be work in office hour instead of shift work
I want to start from zero
I want to live a newlife again
because stumble make me a different person compare to the previous of me
I'm learning to be more tough le because I always think that I am fail in doing this doing that...
fail in my relationship , my career is not easy too.. I fail ...

I sitting at the coffee hut at the city link wait for Chingkai to go ahead to Millineum Tower
while waiting, I am thinking, looking at the amount of money required
thinking the things I mentioned above... let go, not let go?
"but I want to study a degree, that is my dream"
"but money how?"
still waiting
for the answer

Am I doing in God's will?
How come I hit so many times in the things I doing now
I always treat it as God want to mould me to be a stronger and tougher at this period of time
God's potter hand
nobody will imagine how I can go through all this while, I am a zero
without God I can't

mood seems very sad,
and ended up knowing the place i want to go is not opened
headed back to my home
went to buy some daily stuff
and while waiting my mos burger at the bench and thinking about my life and feel very down..
suddenly I saw him, the person I thinking we will not met again , he went to 711, wearing long sleeve office wear with long simon
my heart was pounding very fast dunno he see me o not, but I am sure he din see me
after I took my burger I look back the direction that he went ,
talking to a lady wearing purple.. I look back and went off..
Mind was blank and I just holding the barang barang ahead home

too many things in one time, I dunno how to react


go back home , read his blog,
Mayb I wronged him. Actually he really does love her and not polygamous, and hope wat I trust on him is correct..
But I will let go of him..

The important points for my reflection

Today shared by Sy Hoi after talking to Boon
be sensitive to things around
dun be too stubborn
must agree with the mistake and change and not listen but not change because in heart actually disagree with what they said
be fast and alert
knowing what u want and not lost the aim and do not lost the direction
think deep and not superficial, dun be naive
read more inspiring book
gather the success path

this is what I need to learn, stumble , fall, pick up and go , run and fly... pain but need to hold on.. All the way..

22/6/06 Thursday

wake up , do house chores, then I went to visit my aunts and min min at salon
I did the facial by min min.. feels good.. heehee
Thank you so much
Very good service.. haha...I have my lunch there also, there is so much things there
got albalone got chicken soup.. wow wow wow yummy
while waiting Siew Hui, learn to sing a song as below but do not know wat meaning just find the tune is good..

then find out the song is XXX, oh no...

Finally meet Siew Hui at OG then have dinner together and then talk about her current life
well how I wish I also can go with you tour around the world., need courage yo..
But faster go faster come back, K?? accompany me, If not I will be very bored
Singing course ya wait till have the ability first .. see how lor =P

God again tell me not to worry too much

Luke 12:13-34 (New International Version)New International Version (NIV)
Copyright © 1973, 1978, 1984 by International Bible Society

The Parable of the Rich Fool 13Someone in the crowd said to him, "Teacher, tell my brother to divide the inheritance with me." 14Jesus replied, "Man, who appointed me a judge or an arbiter between you?" 15Then he said to them, "Watch out! Be on your guard against all kinds of greed; a man's life does not consist in the abundance of his possessions."
16And he told them this parable: "The ground of a certain rich man produced a good crop. 17He thought to himself, 'What shall I do? I have no place to store my crops.'
18"Then he said, 'This is what I'll do. I will tear down my barns and build bigger ones, and there I will store all my grain and my goods. 19And I'll say to myself, "You have plenty of good things laid up for many years. Take life easy; eat, drink and be merry." '
20"But God said to him, 'You fool! This very night your life will be demanded from you. Then who will get what you have prepared for yourself?'
21"This is how it will be with anyone who stores up things for himself but is not rich toward God."
Do Not Worry 22Then Jesus said to his disciples: "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. 23Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. 24Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! 25Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life[a]? 26Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest? 27"Consider how the lilies grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 28If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you, O you of little faith! 29And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it. 30For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need them. 31But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well.
32"Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has been pleased to give you the kingdom. 33Sell your possessions and give to the poor. Provide purses for yourselves that will not wear out, a treasure in heaven that will not be exhausted, where no thief comes near and no moth destroys. 34For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.


June 22, 2006


Millions!
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READ: Luke 12:13-34

Where your treasure is, there your heart will be also. —Luke 12:34 About this cover The British film Millions tells the engaging story of two brothers who find a bag full of money with no apparent owner. The younger boy wants to use it to help the poor, while the older sibling sees it as his ticket to popularity and the good life. What unfolds is a story that vividly contrasts the freedom of a generous spirit with the frustration of a grasping hand.
In a sermon based on Genesis 3, my pastor said, “Our hands have been clenched from the fall.” Jesus’ teachings about faith and generosity seem deliberately intended to pry them open. He said, “Do not fear, little flock, for it is your Father’s good pleasure to give you the kingdom. Sell what you have and give alms; provide yourselves money bags which do not grow old, a treasure in the heavens that does not fail, where no thief approaches nor moth destroys. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also” (Luke 12:32-34).
The words of our Lord may sound so radical that we find it difficult to figure out how to put them into practice. But if we honestly seek His guidance, He will guide our steps and guard our hearts from worry.
I suspect that the generous boy in that movie had open hands long before millions fell into them. —David C. McCasland
One grace each child of God can showIs giving from a willing heart;Yet, if we wait till riches grow,It may be that we’ll never start. —D. De Haan
There is more power in the open hand than in the clenched fist.

Love never fails

June 21, 2006

Love Never Fails

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READ: 1 Corinthians 13

Now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love. —1 Corinthians 13:13

About this cover
Poet Archibald MacLeish says that “love, like light, grows dearer towards the dark.” This is what he calls the “late, last wisdom of the afternoon.” The same is true of our love for one another; it can indeed grow dearer as we age. I have seen it myself in two elderly friends.

Married for over 50 years, they are still very much in love. One is dying of pancreatic cancer; the other is dying of Parkinson’s disease. Last week I saw Barbara lean over Claude’s bed, kiss him, and whisper, “I love you.” Claude replied, “You’re beautiful.”

I thought of couples who have given up on their marriages, who are unwilling to endure through better or worse, sickness or health, poverty or wealth, and I am saddened for them. They will miss the kind of love my friends enjoy in their latter years.

I have watched Claude and Barbara over the years, and I know that deep faith in God, lifelong commitment, loyalty, and self-denying love are the dominant themes of their marriage. They have taught me that true love never gives up, it “never fails.” Theirs is the “late, last wisdom of the afternoon,” and it will continue to the end. May we express that same unfailing love to those who love us. —David H. Roper

Lord, teach us the secret of loving,
The love You are asking today;
Then help us to love one another—
For this we most earnestly pray. —Anon.

Don’t put off until tomorrow the loving words you can say today.

21/6/06 Wed

I was very excited waiting my annual leave to come.. but my competence checklist haven complete.. haiz..

come back home 9 plus after having breakfast with Rizal and Min wai at canteen
So many ppl while waiting for MRT

Online do my blog and sleepZZZZZ till 7 plus
then meet up Siew Fern for dinner
Talk about recent life and discuss with her
She teach me not to avoid but have to confront it
she said strength to empower, weakness to compromised
She said God in control and give me strength..
She ask me not to change mind easily as there are many things to think of
she share with me, ppl thinking or perspective will be different when they have someone..
Mayb is true, my circle is not that wide enough
I still staying at the same spot


Actually I know
I struggle a lot, decision is hard to make
I am stubborn
I know my strength, weakness my own very clearly.
I know my limitation, physically strength
Everything I know after I start working
I know very well

Then Jon called me, he is caring and sweet, miss the pig huh? haha
He said to waive off the decision problem is find a rich guy and marry to him...
oh, that's a pretty good suggestion huh, but most of rich guy are not sincere and cannot be trusted
will give u the url when I think is the time
because I still haven prepared and very private
and U will know the ppl that I meant, because u know him
this is the reason I not giving my url to u
U sure very dissapointed rite?

want to find oneday to meet Siew Hui, dunno how is she ?

18-20 June 2006

18/6/06
Sunday, My family sent me to Singapore
I brought the pot flower that my mum give me
I put it at near my bedside.. wow.. feel homely
night time going to work, I can't sleep well because I was too tensed up..work 8/1-8/2
today is a big challenge to me, because I work with L..
In my heart I pray very hard, I dunno how I manage to survive

my pt is chronic , thanks God vital sign stable
but is busy got 2 admission
I pass to Jin feng from Salina

19/6/06
Monday, went home watch drama "snow white"
then sleep
then work
April, and wee hong join in..
night is very young
there is laughter , was surprise that April brought a super big calculator
Joke that Mr Tom Cruise, Elvis presley to sign up our assignment that we need to complete..hmm.. I thinking to ask Jay Chow
Yenteng ask me whether want to study Advance Dip
I say no, she ask me Y, I said I consider first and tell her the reason the next morning
The answer I given still the same... I dunno I made the correct choice.. Just pray
My heart a lot of??????

J asked me Y? I told her I need to reconsider
she know I already work 2 years...
U know making a big decision is not easy ..
The courage and the risk should take in




20/6/06
Tuesday
My last night.. Thanks God!! God lead me and let me pass my night without any scolding or hurt,God in control yeah!!
One admission in 8/4 , quite busy
thanks God that L treat us mee hoon , seafood soup and hrb chicken.. wow~ yummy


I thank God that lead me all these while,manage to survive till now. I will forever remember my cry to the Lord when I depress last year
From an incident from a beloved friend of mine, severe depression took her life... This teach me a lesson
PPl feeling different inside them that they appear to be, there is clueless and no sign at all.

STILL

detective conan

This is the comic I love most.. Conan.. heehee
Last time I did draw a big poster for this character.. too bad that time throw away ready.. that picture is not bad

[MV] My Girl and I

Siew Hui, U remember this show and we discuss which is the most touching part, remember? too bad this part din show the end part..the end part when she start to loss her consciousness is the most saddest thing

Canon in D

This is my favourite movie and I started to know Canon in D from this movie... and I started to like korean show.. found that actually is very interesting..the storyline fresh

Canon in D

orchestra Canon D

The very first try of Canon by Funtwo

second player playing

canon in D guitar

When I browse My favourite song for this,, suddenly I find this very interesting .. If u are a guitar fan... do enjoy!!! InterestinG!!!!!!!!!!!!

An American Tail - Somewhere Out There

My favourite song..
when I was young I heard this
and now I still never forget this song

sweet 18 fan video

This the show I start to know them

Korean stars(Se7en - passion)

Nice video, wow wow wow

Lee Dong Gun and Han Ji Hye

Very Kawaii Couple.. Know from Sweet 18, I like them!!

God said there is no fear in love

June 18, 2006

Give Voice To Your Love
READ: 1 John 4:12-19

There is no fear in love. —1 John 4:18

About this cover
In 1990 a TV documentary on the US Civil War attracted huge audiences. One program featured a letter by a soldier killed at the battle of Bull Run. Sullivan Ballou realized the peril he faced in the looming clash, so he wrote a poignant letter to his wife. In part he said, “If I do not return, my dear Sarah, never forget how much I loved you, nor that when my last breath escapes me on the battlefield, it will whisper your name.”

Men, more than women, often find it difficult to express deep emotions. They may squelch the impulse to put their tenderest feelings into words.

This Father’s Day, many men will receive expressions of love, but they may have trouble voicing their love in return. Yet nothing is more masculine than to express love to our loved ones. That’s true not only for fathers but for all of us. We can bestow no gift more precious to those who are wrapped up with us in the bundle of life.

“There is no fear in love,” wrote the apostle John, “but perfect love casts out fear” (1 John 4:18). So let us boldly declare our love, not only for our loved ones but for the One who gave His life for us.

This Father’s Day, emulate that courageous fallen Civil War hero and give voice to your love. —Vernon C Grounds

For Fathers:
Jot a note to someone you love,
and express your love in your message.
Set aside a day for your children this week.

You can never express your love too often.

Wedneday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday

Wednesday
Off day , went home JB yesterday night after visit my aunt, she really strong and she share with me about her experiences ,well really like to go home.. because at least I can talk to my family, watch TV Korean series whole day, is good to sit at the sofa... and lift up my legs, because my legs is too tired and give me an alarm to take good care on it.. as I feel pain at the knee cap and I am young ler.. not 32 ler..

At night I went back to Singapore again... suddenly I feel lonely and I am thinking something..really many things to consider when growing up... especially decision making.. I tell God regards this in my heart, then I started to read the book I bought regards dicerning God's Will...

Suddenly a tap on my shoulder, such a surprise that Winnie is sat beside me all the while when she come in after me and I not realise
In my heart I praise God that send me a guardian angle to comfort me..
God know my need.. Thanks God
I talk to Winnie what I doing just now and I am not so lonely anymore along the journey

Thursday
Work morning, been very busy
evening just want to go home, a bit feel like want to run away to an small island to have a long vacation..haha
I remember I went with my mum and sista to market at Johor Jaya and she dun let me to carry heavy things as she said later my superficial vein will come out at my hand and will be very ugly.. I was very touch and my tears almost drop... She is so love me really... My parents , family love me a lot .. I really thanks God
This is y I always go home..

Friday
Watch TV again...finished
My grandma and grandpa are very important person to me.. My grandpa can't see .. I feel very sour inside
Health is really very important
Growing old is a natural prossess.. I know and recognised the fear, but I really dunno wat to say about it.. when I listen to my grandpa and grand ma 's problem..
I can only pray and hope to make them happy

My PC background

A Tender And Mighty God

taken from Barratt 's photo

June 12, 2006
A Tender And Mighty God
LISTEN TO ODB RADIO: Real MP3 WMAREAD: Psalm 147:1-5
[God] heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. He counts the number of the stars; He calls them all by name. —Psalm 147:3-4
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God knows and numbers the stars, yet He is concerned about you and me, even though we’re broken by sin. He binds our shattered hearts with sensitivity and kindness, and He brings healing into the depths of our souls. The greatness of God’s power is the greatness of His heart. His strength is the measure of His love. He is a tender and mighty God.
The psalmist tells us that God “counts the number of the stars,” and even “calls them all by name” (147:4). Would He care for the stars that are mere matter and not care for us, who bear His image? Of course not. He knows about our lonely struggles, and He cares. It is His business to care.
God, in the form of His Son Jesus, was subject to all our passions (Hebrews 2:18). He understands and does not scold or condemn when we fall short and fail. He leans down and listens to our cries for help. He gently corrects us. He heals through time and with great skill.
The stars will fall from the sky someday. They are not God’s major concern—you are! He “is able to keep you from stumbling, and to present you faultless before the presence of His glory with exceeding joy” (Jude 1:24). And He will do it! —David H. Roper—David H. Roper-->
The God who made the firmament,Who made the deepest sea,The God who put the stars in placeIs the God who cares for me. —Berg
Because God cares about us, we can leave our cares with Him.

Focus On Being

June 13, 2006
Focus On Being
LISTEN TO ODB RADIO: Real MP3 WMAREAD: Matthew 6:25-34
Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin. —Matthew 6:28
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During a small-group exercise at a seminar, we were asked to introduce ourselves without referring to our occupations. The challenge was to explain who we are instead of telling what we do. It was not easy to focus on being instead of doing.
Dr. William H. Thomas, a geriatric specialist, has pointed out that babies begin life by being. As we approach adulthood, the emphasis shifts to accomplishment. Then, as we grow older and our energy wanes, we must refocus on being. “Elderhood brings us full circle,” Thomas says, “to a life that favors being over doing. This is a gift of great value.”
But the search for being isn’t confined to the sunset years. Jesus said that the proper focus is the antidote for anxiety at any age. He told His followers to look at the birds and flowers, which are not defined by what they do, and yet God cares for them.
Oswald Chambers said: “‘Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow’ . . . they simply are! Think of the sea, the air, the sun, the stars, and the moon—all of these simply are as well, yet what a ministry and service they render.”
As Christians, our value to God comes not from what we do for Him, but in what we are to Him. Our being—more than our doing—glorifies His name. —David C. McCasland—David C. McCasland-->
We’re members of God’s family,We’re children of the King;Because we’ve put our faith in Christ,To us He’ll always cling. —Sper
You are one of a kind—designed to glorify God as only you can.

Do not Worry

Matthew 6:25-34 (New International Version)
New International Version (NIV)
Copyright © 1973, 1978, 1984 by International Bible Society

25"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life[a]?
28"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

13/6/06 Tuesday

today whole day I rest finally.. very tired the whole week
do house chores
staying home watching the Korean Drama because my left knee painful as due to long standing hours
went for dance at 7 pm at choir room
this is a powerful song, starting feel not interested but subsequently I like it because is talking about God's warrior, is powerful

I realised I'm a slow learner and too shy to ask, like mouth got gold, prideful because mayb my self worth is low.. scare cannot take it...
Lord want me to deal with my weaknesses that shown me a lot
thanks for Winne for helping me

Monday 11/6/06

I work morning8/5 and 8/6
GW status still ok.. and thanks God able to go back on time
Go back home sleep awhile

met up with Yan xin, Hui wen and her beloved bf , Kelly, we have our dinner at Swensens Restaurant at Orchard
This time I 'm late because sleeping at home
I ordered creammy spaggetti and peppermint icecream , well nice
very enjoy walking with them at the orchard road, looking up the sky.hopee the chance again
as we are so busy working

While walking at the orchard road, I remembered
The most thing I feel touch is Kok.H holding his personal made milkshake and walk from paragon for me at the other end of orchard Road.. thank you man.. u are a sincere friend!!

then guess wat when I say bye to yan xin at orchard mrt
I met Hong Da and Xing Rong
Woah~~~!!
after 6 years we meet again... really very happy..
because he is staying at KL..meet at orchard mrt accidently.. I only can recoginised him when he tap my shoulder
Well, wat a surprise... thanks GOD.. I am really happy to meet my old holylight gang.. hurhur

Person to meet each other is not easy..
thanks God
Got my old friend back, told yee an about it.. he also very happy
because we can contact him le

wat a happy day!!!!!!!!!!!!

10/6/06 Sunday- Esther 's obedient

Thanks God I worked as junior today at rm8
God want me to go church because I missed last week
Being a junior good thing is can go back home on time
This is a right timing

I went to yuting's house at serangoon
meeting couple of ppl there.. I take a nap there.. because I really sleepy as yesterday go home really late 12.45pm
L said I should resign as dun waste young time and energy becos is still long way to go
this happened before I start working..actually is true, I feel sad to hear that.. but not so hurt anymore
I 'm still waiting Lord's word

at yuting's place know hui min, soccer coach, soccer talent
haha.. too bad both of us not soccer fan
sometimes dunno y many ppl like soccer so much, I used to think waste time , waste energy and manpower
many ppl running in the field for a ball, sometimes match came out 0

afterward I realised ppl enjoyed kicking football technique
last time I tried to understand and find out wat is soccer match about for him
the first time I watch the soccer match , he is in
feel very heartache as this type of game easily injured
because sometimes need rolling when landed
take care

I enjoyed talking with yuting and her friends but the prority I know
so I went to church and that day the speaker
speak about Esther's Obedient
Wait upon God to give her wisdom do the right things to save her ppl.. she is not self centreshe wait upon Lord to make things right to him
She did ask her ppl to pray and fast for her
and then she manage to save her ppl


then the speaker talk about ART as below the "praying hand" powerful

10/6/06 Sunday

10/6/06 Sunday

The Story Behind the Picture of "The Praying Hands"

Back in the fifteenth century, in a tiny village near Nuremberg, lived a family with eighteen children. Eighteen! In order merely to keep food on the table for this mob, the father and head of the household, a goldsmith by profession, worked almost eighteen hours a day at his trade and any other paying chore he could find in the neighborhood.
Despite their seemingly hopeless condition, two of Albrecht Durer the Elder's children had a dream. They both wanted to pursue their talent for art, but they knew full well that their father would never be financially able to send either of them to Nuremberg to study at the Academy.
After many long discussions at night in their crowded bed, the two boys finally worked out a pact. They would toss a coin. The loser would go down into the nearby mines and, with his earnings, support his brother while he attended the academy. Then, when that brother who won the toss completed his studies, in four years, he would support the other brother at the academy, either with sales of his artwork or, if necessary, also by laboring in the mines.
They tossed a coin on a Sunday morning after church. Albrecht Durer won the toss and went off to Nuremberg.
Albert went down into the dangerous mines and, for the next four years, financed his brother, whose work at the academy was almost an immediate sensation. Albrecht's etchings, his woodcuts, and his oils were far better than those of most of his professors, and by the time he graduated, he was beginning to earn considerable fees for his commissioned works.
When the young artist returned to his village, the Durer family held a festive dinner on their lawn to celebrate Albrecht's triumphant homecoming. After a long and memorable meal, punctuated with music and laughter, Albrecht rose from his honored position at the head of the table to drink a toast to his beloved brother for the years of sacrifice that had enabled Albrecht to fulfill his ambition. His closing words were, "And now, Albert, blessed brother of mine, now it is your turn. Now you can go to Nuremberg to pursue your dream, and I will take care of you."
All heads turned in eager expectation to the far end of the table where Albert sat, tears streaming down his pale face, shaking his lowered head from side to side while he sobbed and repeated, over and over, "No ...no ...no ...no."
Finally, Albert rose and wiped the tears from his cheeks. He glanced down the long table at the faces he loved, and then, holding his hands close to his right cheek, he said softly, "No, brother. I cannot go to Nuremberg. It is too late for me. Look ... look what four years in the mines have done to my hands! The bones in every finger have been smashed at least once, and lately I have been suffering from arthritis so badly in my right hand that I cannot even hold a glass to return your toast, much less make delicate lines on parchment or canvas with a pen or a brush. No, brother ... for me it is too late."
More than 450 years have passed. By now, Albrecht Durer's hundreds of masterful portraits, pen and silver-point sketches, watercolors, charcoals, woodcuts, and copper engravings hang in every great museum in the world, but the odds are great that you, like most people, are familiar with only one of Albrecht Durer's works. More than merely being familiar with it, you very well may have a reproduction hanging in your home or office.
One day, to pay homage to Albert for all that he had sacrificed, Albrecht Durer painstakingly drew his brother's abused hands with palms together and thin fingers stretched skyward. He called his powerful drawing simply "Hands," but the entire world almost immediately opened their hearts to his great masterpiece and renamed his tribute of love "The Praying Hands."
The next time you see a copy of that touching creation, take a second look. Let it be your reminder, if you still need one, that no one - no one - - ever makes it alone!

10/6/06 sat

I work afternoon, again room1 and 2, pair up with Chun ying, she is my good helper... I feel really mentally and physically exhausted.. others outsider also ask...

but now just aim finish my task and go back... I'm tired..
This is the first time I went back home at 12.45pm ..
tomorrow I work morning...
But thanks God I still survive

God know my limitation
thank God.. when yesterday I was so anxious there is no helper, I cannot cope
then,
God provide Cigy
this time God provide Chun Ying..
without them I really cannot
actually chunying is called back last minute for working
and Cigy actually is work at other place but sister put them in
Thanks God

Sat.. just passed like that...

9/6/06 Friday

I work afternoon in Gw 1 and 2... ppl seeing me like rushing girl..
run here and there.. thanks for cigy for helping me to give all the iv and medicine, turning
without her.. I really can't imagine...

still stay up 10.30 pm afterthat...
Go home rest sleep...
Online is the entertainment for me after work... when I really tired.. even no time for me to write my diary here..

8/6/06 Thursday work evening

I ask xiao yin to stay overnight to accompany me as chingkai and sy hoi not there.. I'm alone
morning, went to post office with Xiao yin to collect the letter for chingkai as he said is urgent
that day very rush... raining but no cab

Aiya stepped "Dog shit" accidently , OH no!!!!! My working shoes.. damn smelly
before that yesterday night I laugh at Xiao yin for stepping dog shit at the garden when we walking .. now this is my turn to let her laugh at me...


Feel nausea and feel no appetide after that incident and not feeling well , eat nasi lemak at chinatown with her then rush for work...
Recently I eat a lot of chilly compare to last time, without chilly I have no appetide, something wrong with me I guess
is it too stress up?? I dunno


working ICA but good , all pt are not too complicated... pass to June..
ya , she said we do read up exodus together
but I haven start yet.. is very encouraging if both of us study together
she is same year same month same birthday with me... but we are so different
dun feel like comparing.. because I feel very lousy
anyway in God's eye " we are unique and precious each individual"

Wednesday 7/6/06 Rest day Vs non rest day, Mr. Bean Day

This Wed , 7/6/06.. is my rest day, but my life still busy just like working days...
Went to my work place to collect the medical report
Cute staff yen leng, before she pass the medical report to me said
"U have this first but....."
I was so worry and have cold sweat..
"huh??"
"issit I have anything or? "
I was shocked
" no... but u have to go staff clinic to pay "
Thank God!!


I went to ICA to do my stuff, PR yellow card I got. ..
I wait there whole afternoon
Watch Mr Bean show there , find out actually this is the only show can make me laugh till stomach pain

then I went to meet big aunt, small aunt, xiao yin ,min at salon
finally can meet xiao yin after so long
she prepare for the oversea stay .. she is a tough person.. I should be like her...
She dare to go Australia alone ...went there study and do part time..
will be very tough for her...
I will miss her so much , she just like my younger sister, we grew up together
but our personalities is 180 degree different... she is hot

Sometimes I wonder will I able to survive if I went somewhere alone... I am too "lembik" ready..
When I came to Singapore, thanks God I still have my relatives, my cousin here... that's good
then I meet Siew Hui, first person I msg with dear, my very good roommates, my angle qi pei, all my friends, my jie jie men in church, my colleagues... this is all my encounters

Everytime I learnt from them, I'm such a learning growing kid
Thanks God

Wednesday 7/6/06 Rest day Vs non rest day, Mr. Bean Day

Tuesday 6/6/06

Today I work morning, really dun feel like working, very lazy...
Start working ... got a lot of changes, been very busy with the medicine.. but I can't help it.. no stock.. keep on running around 7 times to nxt door, even Kenan see me break record
haha..
jie jie noted about it.. remind me cannot be overtime, but I just can't help it.. because I need to give

working the whole day, I thanks God able to finish all my changes but unable to finish up my report so I need to write....they left rm3 for me but I really no time... miscommunication or purposely I du not know , they leave for me... Actually, I really have no time even for my work wheregot chance to help my assistant..
Again gossip and labelling I faced with the same person I almost quarrel with, I know she non-stop talk bad behind me even new comers.. but I learnt to keep my temper down , I know God will judge oneday...Wat I basically do is help ppl.. that's all ... but sometimes the environment really challenge me

I feel sad again when I go back late... Job like always not finish and I always late..dunno y?
I see zhiyu...not so boring.. happy at least.just smile
stay back till 5.45pm... so slow..


went for Dance ministry, non-rest..
talk to Jen... Thanks For Yen teng..and others all my dear sister.. I will slowly grow up, u all like my role models..
When Jen teach me suddenly I feel blank, too long din dance will like that I guess but I think they did pray for me then I better a bit at least can dance huh...
Hmm... cannot be loose .. must catch up ...
When Michelle sharing, I really feel a bit like my situation too.. when Jen ask me to share but I still haven made up mind.. awaiting .. be silence in myself....is hard... is pain, is challenging..
I just want to honour God , but how to honour God if I am that situation ?
When Jen said about the KIng, Phophet and the lion, suddenly I feel this is God want to tell me something that very important because I come across this 3 times recently while I am thinking...and try to make up decision....

My dreams yesterday stopped at D then ?? then A... very strange
huh???//
?? in the dream is the man waiting for his princess to come back but she already drowned when she trying to something while she is sailing with her surbodinates... but the man still waiting her, and the ppl tell him she actually gone but she did appear at his front.. then i woke up...

Wat kind of dream is this ...?? Still figure out wat kind of movie I watch last time...
I sweat ar..

4/5/06-Sunday

Sunday, work afternoon... Thanks Jon for encouragement.
conserve energy ... knowing will be very busy as taking 3,4,5
Reeney , me , zion, siti really helped each other .. really really thank God manage to survive
Kena bombard questions again when I am so busy, clueless... like shooting gun non stop.. one questions followed by another although I haven answer..
Imagine how I feel while I still worry for other things that haven done..

went back home late tot Reeney will late as so many compare to me but in the end I late... I'm so slow

Finished the CD ...Making a very very important decision really hard ... got consequences.. I din dare to simply made..... that's y I still pray about it

Life really have many important choices that need to made
I still thinking which path to go for next lap still N or D???
I try to silent myself and consider...............
hard............hard......

Relationship I already know...
That time too many things can't focus..
But slowly I see clearer..
Relationship I got one answer. One door closed before me
Still asking God is that the one prop in with something similiar that I ask for...
Just wait for the answer..
Actually I have some affraid regards the marriage and the plans ahead although my" dreams" is open a bridal shop, dunno why have this kind of feeling... dunno can overcome it?

Encik Vs Pakcik

Mr Vs Encik Vs Pakcik...
Remember ppl always like to be called Mr... A lesson that I learnt today..

yar, I am angry with myself

I am angry with myself.............
Really angry.......................................
I feel myself really damn funny lo.....

Good , can started to erase all.. the one in my memory which is frank, true and never cheat is my misconception..................................His attraction for me is his personalities.
Thought is a really love someone but really ended up knowing this is a smart multiplayer of ppl 's true feeling...I hate playboy, I hate not serious..., God please forgive me that I still haven forgive him... mayb need quite some times
All along the trust and the declaration of trust for the one u trust, even all the ppl dun trust I still trust ended up I realised the truth by myself...
Even tell the one u love to love u again and to trust u again...
and warned by somebody not be too naive...
but again I ask her to trust you
hahaha.. I'm really damn funny hor..
yes,
U win.

I will forget u.

1/6/06 walking along the causeway .....

when I find out the truth, I really disappointed with myself
okokok... this is not the first time... I encountered similiar kind of sparetyre trials more than one time.. I can used to it.........of course I am really mad and sad .. because I am blind...
when I walking along the causeway on my way back, tears already returned to sea, I forget about the long distance.......
Is it all the man like that...............yar I guess so.. most are them cannot be trusted
U may disagree with me, but this is only my conclusion after all
I will be okay
God, I pray that I can learnt to forgive.
and answered faded my love.

31/5/06 perceptorship

went for the perceptor course, one day 8-430, such a long hours... sometimes I still think can I still sit for long hour for the lecture?Being a perceptor???? I din take it seriously at first but after that I feel the responsibilities and the important role ...

Educator is one of my aim in this line if possible , if want me to choose for developement in future.. perceptor is kind of my stepping stone.. but I feel I am lacking... a lot...mayb God want to train me... got a lot to catch up... really.. wait and see.. I want to be a good one!

Thank God , Yan Xin's accompany, not so bored, knew a energetic friend Ann from NC, xiao zhen my neighbour door colleague, huimin 46, guan hong... their maturity and experiences really influenced me... they are passionate.. tough character..can be my role model

me, yan xin and ann went to International Plaza at Tanjong pagar to find a place for having our lunch, choose the French -Vietnaneese restaurant finally after so many round... but to engrosed in discussing our work till late for class... funny..

after that went back to JB home

fire work

is exteremely beautiful but is very short..

vanished when the show end