Psalm 40

Psalm 40:1-5 (New International Version)
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Psalm 40
For the director of music. Of David. A psalm. 1 I waited patiently for the LORD; he turned to me and heard my cry.
2 He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand.
3 He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear and put their trust in the LORD.
4 Blessed is the man who makes the LORD his trust, who does not look to the proud, to those who turn aside to false gods. [a]
5 Many, O LORD my God, are the wonders you have done. The things you planned for us no one can recount to you; were I to speak and tell of them, they would be too many to declare.

Lifted From The Depths
READ: Psalm 40:1-5
I waited patiently for the Lord; and He inclined to me, and heard my cry. He also brought me up out of a horrible pit. —Psalm 40:1-2
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A British submarine lay disabled on the ocean floor. Several days passed and the crew lost hope of being rescued. The prospect was especially dim because they had not been able to communicate their exact position to ships on the surface. The commanding officer explained to the men that they didn’t have much longer to live, and he suggested that they sing a hymn. So together, they sang these words: "The darkness deepens—Lord, with me abide."
As the oxygen supply began to run out, the men gradually weakened. One sailor was affected more quickly than the others and lurched forward, crashing against the vessel’s surfacing equipment. Suddenly the faulty mechanism began to operate, and the vessel slowly rose from the ocean floor. They all made it back to port safely.
Greater than any deliverance from a literal sea is God’s provision for those who are trapped in the ocean of unbelief. Only a miracle of grace can bring us out of the pit of sin and degradation.
If you are caught in the grip of sin, Jesus alone can give you a new start. If you put your trust in the Savior, you will be lifted out of the waters of judgment and into the sunlight of God’s forgiveness. —Henry G. Bosch—Henry G. Bosch-->
From sinking sand He lifted me,With tender hand He lifted me;From shades of night to plains of light,O praise His name, He lifted me! —Gabriel
God’s grace can lift you from the plight of sin into the light of salvation.

Sunday 30/4/06

Sunday morning went to church with family... see victor , yee an, pei an , peiling , zhang lao_ chau wei.. only din see Ma li, hope she is happy as yesterday is her birthday... I managed to call her last night... hope she is happy

sleep afternoon then come back to Singapore.. able to share with Grandmum regards gospel...

29/4/06 Oh no My SHOES

sleeping day, slept till 1 plus afternoon... then washed my cloths again... one big piles..
get ready to My grand grand grand mum ( grand pa 's mum)birthday, 80years old..

wear socks with skirts and funny shoes abit like japanese style...
too bad my shoes spoilt when I half walking at custom... so funny.. asked the cleaner and custom officer for rubber band as suggested by the cleaner, a bit like beggar.. haha... cos I really have no other choice and I am going to be late for the feast...but thanks God I able to reach the restaurant safe and peace after taking a taxi near Malaysia custom... I still safe... whiew...if not I cannot imagine how can I walk with a pair of thin socks

Lucky Restaurant at taman tebrau, nice nice nice..

28/4/06

night shift again... kong and Melanie joined in... this night remain the same person but the 8/2 still not on restaint ... keep an eye watching him....Kong help me again when he want to come down of bed... Thanks Kong

Kenan shared with me and I find it very useful.. Do things must be fast and steady or slow and steady...as long as steady.. yar, this is true.. I should learnt although I not fast enough.. :>

the next morning, L war explode... Vijaya kena bombard... we try to hide because we've been bombard before we know how it feel ... anyway is safe if to go home fast .. run..................

After I browse again ...

Free Willy, now sure in a bad mood I guess.. comments that bring to sure very tiring, hope he is okay and dun bother those negative comments so much as conscience is clear.. The purpose of his blogging is main for ventilate out of his inner voice, perhaps for hinting what he want ( because he does not have this habbit to say out wat he want or want to ask the person to stay beside him)

words can built, word can kill, also destructive if there is selfish thought, it remind me of key word "tongue "
Ppl say he is liar, but I can put trust on him because he is the Free Willy that I know. If even no trust in human relationship, everything will be fake..
Cheer up , free Willy!!




Proverbs 15:3-5 (New International Version)
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3 The eyes of the LORD are everywhere, keeping watch on the wicked and the good.
4 The tongue that brings healing is a tree of life, but a deceitful tongue crushes the spirit.

Job 5:21You will be protected from the lash of the tongue, and need not fear when destruction comes.Job 5:20-22 (in Context) Job 5 (Whole Chapter)

Proverbs 18:20-22 (New International Version)
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20 From the fruit of his mouth a man's stomach is filled; with the harvest from his lips he is satisfied.
21 The tongue has the power of life and death, and those who love it will eat its fruit.

Isaiah 5:24 (New International Version)
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24 Therefore, as tongues of fire lick up straw and as dry grass sinks down in the flames, so their roots will decay and their flowers blow away like dust; for they have rejected the law of the LORD Almighty and spurned the word of the Holy One of Israel

Psalm 12:3-5 (New International Version)
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3 May the LORD cut off all flattering lips and every boastful tongue
4 that says, "We will triumph with our tongues; we own our lips [a] —who is our master?"
5 "Because of the oppression of the weak and the groaning of the needy, I will now arise," says the LORD. "I will protect them from those who malign them

Psalm 39:1 (New International Version)
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Psalm 39
For the director of music. For Jeduthun. A psalm of David. 1 I said, "I will watch my ways and keep my tongue from sin; I will put a muzzle on my mouth as long as the wicked are in my presence."

Psalm 37:30 (New International Version)
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30 The mouth of the righteous man utters wisdom, and his tongue speaks what is just.

27/4/06 Hooray I finished my assessment on Defib.

today wake up at 5.30pm.. couldn't sleep much, was anxious with my test... Defibrillator assessment with Sis zainaf, I never really read .. that's y I am anxious ... pray to God help me to concentrate and thanks God I able to passed !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! whiew, wat a relief... thanks priscillia, thanks Han, I can go home with peace during my offday because I no need to worry to book time with sis anymore....the 8/2 is new case which transferred by Yan Xin, well very excited to talk to her... xiao le...
DC raymond ???? in his head, got case also so happy ar????

but I was took over from Ah Boon... Okie lar during whole night...
the 8/2 is superb aggressive, thanks God I catch him wanna climb out off the bed in time.... he sound very rude and uncoorperative.. if not talk nicely, I think I will kena" bushed", Thanks God ,DC sara and Vijaya come for my rescue... they seized him to walk around in the same room ad he is confuse , wanna find way out to escape... called up for few strong , big size Indian security to guard me and Vijaya while put him on body restraint...really happening.. got two suria radio somemore... mm....mmm......the night is happening with "soothing "music...

But Reeny's pt both very challenging to her.. one gone .. cannot imagine .. he looked so alert before that but BP is extremely low... life is fragile... I was shocked when LLeng told me the news when I was having my supper...Hard time for Reeney, I think she is very tired very tired very.....

morning went visit my aunt...

26/4/06 Night shift

Today is my first night... in charge 8/1-8/2.. with LLeng, Kelly, Kenan Yap, Hui Wen, Ivy,Reeny, Jinfeng, Sonia, cerna...

well, that night is so fun... one gang together gonna rock the place... haha..... My pt is 8/1 only ,been very happy througthout the night because these ppl can click... Hopefully next time can have these group of ppl again on night.. peaceful ,,,
Me and Kelly talk a lot.. She and Kenan give me advice too... on the choices I should made.. listen from different perspective of views is good to me... to avoid mistake that happen again..because I'm stubborn ..really

Kenan said I must choose the vital and give me an example of climbing the slope.. Ya .. I must be alert.. becos I must learnt from previous lessons if intend to guard the precious thing in my life
Is very very heartache when come into situation to tell myself yes or no, maybe the one never think of the struggles in me...because I might be a little small thing..
Just like the Aunty MCPHEEL said in the show...


Just let the Lord lead, I must remember God in control of everything... I must do things according to God's will and God's way and not my will and my way..

24/4/06-25/4/.06

Went home straight after the dance yesterday then go back JB, meet up with my dad and my mom...

stay at home , watch MUMMY MCPHEEL, well, is interesting... then play guitar, I think lost touch for so long, wannna learn new songs one day when I free.. if not there is no improvement....


On line....... see my grandmum and grand dad, they are old, my grandmum no appetide, heartache when see her grow thinner and thinner...then night time go home....

Today is Sy Hoi birthday!! Ckai told me...
Words unable to describe the friendship between us :>

Me such a blur sotong, confused with the birthday.. need a punch

23/4/06

Sunday morning, dance also for two round, whole day feel joyful... Is joyful when serve the Lord in the things u like , really!!

By God grace, things can be done..

we went to Banana Leaf Apollo Indian food to have our lunch.... delicious..next time can recommend to people...I think jen and others will be shock when heard my answer of wat I really want now? Actually So many things I want, I think a lot, I also dislike with my answer... but is my true word

Yteng and Jen they will pray for me... they are like my big sisters.. teachers.....
went back home browse my bible and this verse appeared to me many times...

Hebrews 13:5-6 (New International Version)

5Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you."[a] 6So we say with confidence, "The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?"[b]

Obedient needed

22/4/06 Saturday

ths morning is dayOff.. hooray... but very excited and anxious because later can dance for God ... His resurrection power, yeah!! By God grace , I can do it!! Is not by my own strength but is God's strength...

I go and buy two long pants at G2000 , will very nice ya the pants, class..bought many socks, the seller will happy to see me...

then I go having lunch at JIn san Ling.. sit there quite long, suddenly I heard a familiar voice... a familiar action... haha.. It's Timothy... talking to his youth members... well , very happy to see him.. still stay funky and happy always... think back really din keep in touch with others ...

I dance for the Saturday, well, very happy can dance for Lord in Groups, Jen said tomorrow me and Winnie can join in , feel very happy about it.. cheers Winnie

Praise the Lord!

21/4/06 work in ICA

I remembered that day work in ICA, everything still go smoothly ... two case transferred out.. and LLeng take over from me...

Thanks God for that day

20/4/06 work in GW 4 and 5

when I stay back to settle my things inGW 4 and 5, sometimes, kepo will bring myself in trouble too... help to receive a call and asked to bring dinner up for the transferred case...

At the end I was blamed that din't informed regards this... actually is a small thing... but they make it like a big thing, I was questioned... and finally knew all the blame are pushed on me...I din do wrong.. the only problem is communication problem...Sis Gan Xie suddenly talk to me like that shocked DR V also ..

sometimes u do not know who is ur friend or enemy .. is this working life?..
Open eye and see... I was few times hurt by ppl that I think is a friend but in the end they are not standing at my side.. really dissappointed that time.. but now okie le

GW 4 and 5

I worked 4 and 5 subsequently....... a lot of work... afternoon one admission .. take me some times to settle.. that one a bit demanding, can regulate things himself even smile at us that say we silly.. huh?

The next day morning, I worked in the same room...really can't sleep well.. becos I know the next day morning will busy like mad... Thanks God that I able to make it through .. thanks God that Min Wai and Jin Feng and there is three more person, help me with the medication....can u imagine, two going out for procedure at the morning, three STO , one discharge, One on suicidal precaution but cannot restraint... My heart was pumping very fast... I made a prayer in my heart to keep all the ppl safe... That day really hectic... my emotion was tensed up..ppl's life

When I see that person who groaning in pain , heard that he called up to his family said he want to go now, he want to go to Chinatown and jump off... I really had a cold sweat...
A person who in charge of him, wat kind of feeling will u have...?
Is really sad when see such a situation... and his family ask to keep him safe... and yet dun restraint him and just let him walk around...

I was down for few days mayb because of some confusion, lack of confidence in myself, lack of faith... then try to watch " My little Bride" to occupied my negative thought and entertained myself.. because physically and mentally tired.. at least make myself more relax and feel funny...

Life is really precious.... I was blessed , Thanks God!! Sometimes I think when I really face myself in life danger situation, I wish I still stay alive.. because life is beautiful and there is so many things , supprisers waiting for us, and I dun wish to leave my loves one

God let me realise this

Life is fragile, dunno when is the timing, anything want to say , say it out if beneficial, if anything wanna work out, work out for beneficial, if not the person will never know, things will left undone and end up with regret

And God want us to do things not only by his will and by his way..

We need to be obedience really.

Monday

Morning at ICA, that day one pt from 1/2 came in GCS drop and SPO2 drop... well everyone including Sis Ho helped me.. whoa.. to pushed the injection trolley...
that time emergency, other Dc make changes in this time.. haiz... KIV lumbar puncture?????huh uh..Then I pass to Asraf... the bed even haven warm up ... just stay only 20 minute then transfer to him for intubation.. both of us feel pity and funny with the bed need to change ... wasted..

this is the last day Anitha will be in here our working place.............we took picture together... and she is great.. really because she is the one who orientated me from the beginning... I really appreciate her... that day i acidently said later will be busy.. ICA is like that... beginng is alright .. then when reach until 11 or 12 there is some changes if there is bed .. and my left eye lit keep on twitching....

Passed to Hui wen .. learnt to do things straight forward... Thanks for her sharing..
The 6/4 son very hard to deal.. even worse I keep on confused with ashoke and suhail... these name so hard to pronounced... the son has a very black face , really black face.. I feel scare when I tak to him.. he said not to panic... haha... how can not... because the ashoke and suhail make me mad ready when I pronounced their name...

Pushing blame to each other I witness this time..sick of it

Sunday

Sunday- is good day...I worked in 1 and 2... when I reach, was told there is admission.. wah.. so fast.. but Thanks God is not DIL.. Mei Hwa, Norazlina, Azraf did help me with Ah Boon and morning staff... Thanks God is not come after 3.15pm...

That day really busy deal with so many things...IA line.. and both 1 and 2 is challenging... 1 is MICU case... second is NICU.. platelet , fluids, medications, pt both got aspiration, urine output low problem... so keep on watching that... Thanks God for Mei Hwa helped me so much... she attended my pt more than hers...

still going home a bit late... passed to Melissa

God said be strong in the grace that is in Christ Jesus

Today is Sunday, working afternoon... can't really sleep well... feel like empty... din pray enough, that's y.. gonna close to God..

yesterday called up Anitha, she said she will checked everything if the cut down set opened and she cleared... I trust her too.. but where is the sharp blunt?? Gonna answer for it..xian...

Morning, feel a bit cool also... dunno how 's the Pt wif herpes zooster... pray for healthy body...

When I read daily bread in the morning,

2 Timothy 2:1-13
2 Timothy 2
1You then, my son, be strong in the grace that is in Christ Jesus. 2And the things you have heard me say in the presence of many witnesses entrust to reliable men who will also be qualified to teach others. 3Endure hardship with us like a good soldier of Christ Jesus. 4No one serving as a soldier gets involved in civilian affairs—he wants to please his commanding officer. 5Similarly, if anyone competes as an athlete, he does not receive the victor's crown unless he competes according to the rules. 6The hardworking farmer should be the first to receive a share of the crops. 7Reflect on what I am saying, for the Lord will give you insight into all this.
8Remember Jesus Christ, raised from the dead, descended from David. This is my gospel, 9for which I am suffering even to the point of being chained like a criminal. But God's word is not chained. 10Therefore I endure everything for the sake of the elect, that they too may obtain the salvation that is in Christ Jesus, with eternal glory.
11Here is a trustworthy saying: If we died with him, we will also live with him; 12if we endure, we will also reign with him. If we disown him, he will also disown us; 13if we are faithless, he will remain faithful, for he cannot disown himself.

God answered me, I tell him the fear within me, But God said

1You then, my son, be strong in the grace that is in Christ Jesus.

15/4/06 I still thank you sharm, I do afraid

Today is my dad birthday( actually real is on 5th) , I woke up 7.30am.. been very sleepy... drowsy also..asked dad to cut the mango cake from SDS with the candles on it... me and sis and brother celebrate together.. mum went to market earlier so can't join us... well is very rush... he cut the cake and sis devided the cake.. my cute sis , she ate the strawberry and many pieces of cake...

After that I rush to Singapore to work, because I working afternoon... been very tiring , and sleepy and blur , working at ICA.. at rest room, sharm recalled me the incident and remind me regards the neurofort incident.. she told me how traumatic is it... yup everyone sure afraid of mis.. I also ......i feel my shoulder very heavy, my heart also drop into the dark hole.. this is wat i feel... suddenly no mood... somemore see my previous offender will become the big head... life will be more challenging................somemore there is problem that the sharp blunt missing as the CSSD called up... do i need to write memo, this type of things also is accountable, if really can't find gonna write memo??????

Y everything also accountable... I really hate this type of accountability and responsibilities.....

I able to finished on time and sit here to relax...relax

Dad , this is for you

14/4/06 wake up 9 plus, wash all my cloths, then went to salon meet my aunts and cousins.. do facial , chat about currently happening... talk about e-excel... hope can bring to success for everyone that really "pia"

went back home at JB around 7 plus , bought a cake for my dad, is his birthday.. meet up with him at grandpa working place.. then we go home together... traffic jam everywhere .. reach home already late... feel not comfortable with my throat..

was heard that mum and brother has some disagreement... well hopefully they can really open their heart and talk nicely oneday... when ppl grow up... really need communicate.. shut up at one corner really will left ur feeling unnoticed..........communication really is important huh..
talk nicely and not talk harshly, art of communication


Hopefully dad feel happy

really sleeping day

I slept whole day on my sleeping day, so tiring, doing night easily get old, true..
watch TV movie again , "shall we dance"then started toZzzzzzzzzzz , overslept till 7.30pm..
then wake up, doing house chores...then cannot sleep ...then sleep at 3.30am.. watching tv again............

12/2/06

today is my third night, no pt at first then at around 1250am, one admission , ICH , very busy that night..busy setting the IA line, CVP line, Intubation, NG tube...no surgical intervention yet....he came in GCS drop after few hours... then sent him to CT scan then after that went to OP at 5 am..

thanks God for having my team colleagues that are very helpful... so many procedure that busy to do... and yet they really help me... well I unfamiliar but this is really an eye opener as so many procedures I need to deal with whithin one night.. my hair so messy ... Thanks God for this opportunity to learn...
I cannot imagine , I really cannot do it alone.. thanks God for the team work

DC mandy nearly cried as she is so stress and worried about pt 's condition... critially and emergency..when she pass over to her friend


I learnt not to put drip together with bloof product in same plug as backflow occurs... Intubation press and prepared the things, cricoid pressure important , blade to prepared a few more... boogie and introducer have to prepared also...


morning I pass to Joan, Thanks God she understanding..

I take cab home as I really exhausted..............

11/4/06

This is my second night..I left one pt and that one passed away... life is fragile... so fragile... never expect him to go so suddenly... VT to PEA to Asystoly....witnessed wat is the last breath and struggle before he passed away.. from no response to limbs till the last struggle of moving of limbs.. opening eyes suddenly... then soon he went........

I was freak out... my colleagues too.. kenan, melanie who help me and witness everything when I call DC for help.. and wee hg...

Wrote report with my hands tremble, I feel cold... never see such things even that my friends said they seldom see the last struggle that so obvious....

suddenly I afraid of death...Is it death is like that....I dun want to die before I already prepared to see God... a lotsa things haven do... havent read the bible.. haven do things for God.. havent strike my goals , havent enjoy and spent with my love ones..

This is where I learnt last office, the procedure..
But the questions is we do not know our timing, so must live everyday meaningfully

Psalm 71:9-18 (New International Version)


9 Do not cast me away when I am old; do not forsake me when my strength is gone.
10 For my enemies speak against me; those who wait to kill me conspire together.
11 They say, "God has forsaken him; pursue him and seize him, for no one will rescue him."
12 Be not far from me, O God; come quickly, O my God, to help me.
13 May my accusers perish in shame; may those who want to harm me be covered with scorn and disgrace.
14 But as for me, I will always have hope; I will praise you more and more.
15 My mouth will tell of your righteousness, of your salvation all day long, though I know not its measure.
16 I will come and proclaim your mighty acts, O Sovereign LORD; I will proclaim your righteousness, yours alone.
17 Since my youth, O God, you have taught me, and to this day I declare your marvelous deeds.
18 Even when I am old and gray, do not forsake me, O God, till I declare your power to the next generation, your might to all who are to come.

We will success oneday

This morning come back from work, met a very unpolite lady that shouting to a kind aunty who help to keep her bag that she leave on the chair... the lady did not say thank you at all, in spite, she scold her for just keep er belonging like that.. Is ridiculous...

If she work like me... I will say sory to all the pt.. because she is really rude
come back talk about plan and chat with Sy hoi.. we will success one day!!!!yeah

Monday, working night

today is my first night, work with hui wen, chua, ke nan yap, han
Night time,chua , me encourage each other in walk with God
Actually something like troubling Joan... her eyes a bit red... She is Good really only a bit bubbling... But she dare to speak the truth, straight until ppl cannot tahan.. but this kind of people actually no harm... they tell straight.. Actually she is my good senior because she dare to share and tell if I'm wrong..

The room 7 aunty , I can see the tears at around the eyes, I think she can hear all the voices that the family keep on calling her to wake up... but she just unable to respond.. God will heal

Isaiah 49:14-18

Yesterday Winnie shared with me regards yesterday sermon.. she said a young girl has three choice to earn money as she want to support her sister to study and go to church as her parent pass away at her earlier age
1st she has to married to a rich guy but she is not extremely beauty.. she just ordinary
2nd she has to sell her flesh as her parent told her not to do so when they are around
3rd she has to work very very hard
so she choose the last choice.. and she work very hard day and night until one day she fall sick and she unable to go church anymore and she is very ill and near to die...
She said to the pastor , Will God forget me? I did not go to church since so long when I am sick... pastor told her

Isaiah 49:14-18 (New International Version)
14 But Zion said, "The LORD has forsaken me, the Lord has forgotten me."
15 "Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I will not forget you!
16 See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands; your walls are ever before me.

The palm of tree

Isaiah 49:14-18 (New International Version)

14 But Zion said, "The LORD has forsaken me, the Lord has forgotten me."
15 "Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I will not forget you!
16 See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands; your walls are ever before me.
17 Your sons hasten back, and those who laid you waste depart from you.
18 Lift up your eyes and look around; all your sons gather and come to you. As surely as I live," declares the LORD, "you will wear them all as ornaments; you will put them on, like a bride


John 12:12-19 (New International Version)

The Triumphal Entry 12The next day the great crowd that had come for the Feast heard that Jesus was on his way to Jerusalem. 13They took palm branches and went out to meet him, shouting, "Hosanna![a]" "Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord!"[b] "Blessed is the King of Israel!" 14Jesus found a young donkey and sat upon it, as it is written, 15"Do not be afraid, O Daughter of Zion; see, your king is coming, seated on a donkey's colt."[c]
16At first his disciples did not understand all this. Only after Jesus was glorified did they realize that these things had been written about him and that they had done these things to him.
17Now the crowd that was with him when he called Lazarus from the tomb and raised him from the dead continued to spread the word. 18Many people, because they had heard that he had given this miraculous sign, went out to meet him. 19So the Pharisees said to one another, "See, this is getting us nowhere. Look how the whole world has gone after him!"
Footnotes:

Sunday!!!!!!!!!!I miss my pig... =(

Today another of my offday.. ahha.. Morning wake up around 8 plus, took my mum's fish porridge then my sis, mum, dad and me follow me to Singapore because gonna put some stuff in my room.. P finally...

I throw away my Cute cute piggy , very upset... this pig follow me 2 year plus but it torn... no choice... accompany me through the sad moment... miss it a lot...

Went to Michelle 's place, after meeting Winnie.. we took bus7 from orchard..we have a fantastic time .. All my sisters are there.. haha.. a great time to talk and we all amused by the Indian dance... chopping sky pattern ... amazing... carrying banana?? huh.. mayb can put in our dance step next time... mayb..

Winnie is kind of person that talk truth, sincere and willing to share... I like her character actually


meet up again with parents at 5 plus then go back JB again.. I feel really good at home...can play with my sis, can talk cock with my brother , can talk rubbish ... I feel I belong... this is wat I feel actually.. we all have our dinner together at bitter bean soup shop together with grandpa and grandma... so happy that we can eat together in round table

watch "eight below" I feel very touched by the dog " the black husky" that so generous and brave to protect and save the others dogs...good show...The touching is the dog try to keep warm by hugging and rolling its body at the injured dog...


tomorrow gonna go back to Sing again... I gonna Jia you ..Must tidy up my place.. planning my plan.. look ahead to my dreamz... will be difficult... Should I take the narrow path? Or should I just follow the wide path... every path leads to different place... must pray about it

Feel stomach ache again... dunno wat happen?Thanks God I still have the medicine with me....

Saturday - a relax day

Saturday, stay at home , My sis can become my p teacher.. haha .. she is so cute and just like a teacher ... but I make her feel inpatient... haha...promised her will learn and practise it...

watch Japanes drama .. " e zuo ju zi wen" very nice... then go out wif mum and sis to Jusco .. manage to bought a nice light decoration to Michelle tomorrow as going for gathering tomorrow..


we stopped at Harris, a very big bookstore.. but really ended up like book storms.. went there read a IQ book .. is fun.. long time din twist my head and think... is time to practice my right brain... couldn't find IQ test for left brain.... dissappointed.. My sis able to buy four excercise book... she is so................................................ happy.. brother drive us home after work .. went to eat at Setia Indah... the food stall really earn money, from small to two shops.. in front has a karaoke corner

My grandpa cook the Shang hai Kuey Teow for us.. I love his cooking... he always save the best for us.. He is my great grandpa!! He also much more stubborn if want to compare with me... heredity...

Friday finally my off day after 9 non stop working days

Friday, work morning Room 1 and 2, unfamiliar , but Thanks God wang na been so patient to me but feel bad when I pass to Steven as a lot of changes during 2pm... he tell ppl that bully me till i work so late because seniors said I din pass to him as joke wif him that he bully me.. well yun said I should learn to be thick face to ask ppl do things.. I will try to...

Went back Bishan, tidy up the living room and clean the toilet... no time to leave the bedroom to tidy up when I come back home..

after that rush to MRT and go back to JB
My dad pick me up, while I waiting for my dad, saw a white sport car, cool... but too bad the cover front is black... damage the PURE image, failure artwork.. haiz

come back home rest awhile, grumbling a bit till my parent also tak boleh tahan.. haha.. f
feel a bit loss actually.. have to admit now actually is in very confuse stage..didn't think they really understand my decision and the reason of wat I'm doing..

Actually I did really struggle, ask myself is it 3 minute things or is it determination problem??
I really dun wish to give up but I really dunno ..
the situation is hard to shine as I learnt all about my weakness and strength from here.. Question is am I doing my way or God's way?follow my will or God's will ...I feel useless when things turn out totally unmatch with wat I want it be.. I feel the grieve in my heart...
Another problem is I wish to success too ...


but knowing God will be with me always and God will prepare the way for me...wat I do is just lean on him and seek him ... Desley reminded me yesterday.. Be faithful

Thursday, 7 ,8

work afternoon, work with yun, wee hong mo hua... very fun to work with them.. Yenteng pass it to me , she is my role model, we come from the same place but she is so outstanding, fast , competent, knowledgeable, soft , pretty, I hardly to find anything wrong with her, she is so perfect. I really like her .. she encourage me alot and share with me her past experiences... I shall thanks her oneday..

today asking about the solution of the acne on my nose , is a " big " problem to me.. really dunno how to squeeze it out.. yun said never try to squeeze , go and see dermatolgist... I think this is the only way...

today able to finished at 1015pm.. still ok,,, take my supper then come back home ... tomorrow kena work morning 1 and 2, met Siew Hui online, heehee... Gambadie o at HSA, better get in, no need reconsiderle.. haha .. so we can go makan together, so near


Thanks God for today My Pt 7 still ok.. the family also ok ... Ah Beng also din scare me..everyday is a new day !

Wed, 7 and 8

Today work afternoon, work with Kong, wee Hong, (Ke nan) yap..everything is Ok.. thanks God.. but the 7 family is a bit rude especially the son.. well abit scary.. like Ah Beng when he walk in.. I remembered Siew hui teach me to do some artificial tatoo at my shoulder or wat to show them I am Ah Lian too... haha... so will scare him also..

come back my mood is so bad cos still late to come out... pass my report to yuting, hopefully she feel ok... not leaving a lot of problems to her as she is so supportive to me among my peers..

feeling not right...and that time cKai was talking about the room light ... hmm.. better keep myself in the room.. because I feel not right is not because of this, just feel lke find somebody to scold... wanna explode kind of feeling.. met jonathan online, another one wan to find somebody to hit while preparing exam.. so funny...

gonna zzz.. and dozz off

1 Peter 1

Praise to God for a Living Hope

Praise to God for a Living Hope 3Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, 4and into an inheritance that can never perish, spoil or fade—kept in heaven for you, 5who through faith are shielded by God's power until the coming of the salvation that is ready to be revealed in the last time. 6In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. 7These have come so that your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. 8Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, 9for you are receiving the goal of your faith, the salvation of your souls.
10Concerning this salvation, the prophets, who spoke of the grace that was to come to you, searched intently and with the greatest care, 11trying to find out the time and circumstances to which the Spirit of Christ in them was pointing when he predicted the sufferings of Christ and the glories that would follow. 12It was revealed to them that they were not serving themselves but you, when they spoke of the things that have now been told you by those who have preached the gospel to you by the Holy Spirit sent from heaven. Even angels long to look into these things.











Psalm 44:17-20 (New International Version)

17 All this happened to us, though we had not forgotten you or been false to your covenant.
18 Our hearts had not turned back; our feet had not strayed from your path.
19 But you crushed us and made us a haunt for jackals and covered us over with deep darkness.
20 If we had forgotten the name of our God or spread out our hands to a foreign god

Genesis 22:1-19
Genesis 22
Abraham Tested 1 Some time later God tested Abraham. He said to him, "Abraham!" "Here I am," he replied.
2 Then God said, "Take your son, your only son, Isaac, whom you love, and go to the region of Moriah. Sacrifice him there as a burnt offering on one of the mountains I will tell you about."
3 Early the next morning Abraham got up and saddled his donkey. He took with him two of his servants and his son Isaac. When he had cut enough wood for the burnt offering, he set out for the place God had told him about. 4 On the third day Abraham looked up and saw the place in the distance. 5 He said to his servants, "Stay here with the donkey while I and the boy go over there. We will worship and then we will come back to you."
6 Abraham took the wood for the burnt offering and placed it on his son Isaac, and he himself carried the fire and the knife. As the two of them went on together, 7 Isaac spoke up and said to his father Abraham, "Father?" "Yes, my son?" Abraham replied. "The fire and wood are here," Isaac said, "but where is the lamb for the burnt offering?"
8 Abraham answered, "God himself will provide the lamb for the burnt offering, my son." And the two of them went on together.
9 When they reached the place God had told him about, Abraham built an altar there and arranged the wood on it. He bound his son Isaac and laid him on the altar, on top of the wood. 10 Then he reached out his hand and took the knife to slay his son. 11 But the angel of the LORD called out to him from heaven, "Abraham! Abraham!" "Here I am," he replied.
12 "Do not lay a hand on the boy," he said. "Do not do anything to him. Now I know that you fear God, because you have not withheld from me your son, your only son."
13 Abraham looked up and there in a thicket he saw a ram [a] caught by its horns. He went over and took the ram and sacrificed it as a burnt offering instead of his son. 14 So Abraham called that place The LORD Will Provide. And to this day it is said, "On the mountain of the LORD it will be provided."
15 The angel of the LORD called to Abraham from heaven a second time 16 and said, "I swear by myself, declares the LORD, that because you have done this and have not withheld your son, your only son, 17 I will surely bless you and make your descendants as numerous as the stars in the sky and as the sand on the seashore. Your descendants will take possession of the cities of their enemies, 18 and through your offspring [b] all nations on earth will be blessed, because you have obeyed me."
19 Then Abraham returned to his servants, and they set off together for Beersheba. And Abraham stayed in Beersheba.

Love no boundaries

4/4/06 Tuesday


work morning, get lotsa scolding, because I dun talk, dun fight, dun think I 'm stupid ok..
I tired to make clear or try to explain myself because ppl dun listen will think u finding excuse ...I am realy tired , my ear like got a lot of bzzzzzzzz.... sound

ppl see soft then easy to push all the blame to other.. is true... I really tired to this environment... I feel i really down... Is not I dun like wat I doing now.. I did enjoy, but the stress that cause the environment so tensed up.. pin pointing... I just dun lie the environment... I am not happy..

I been confused.. I am not regret wat i choose .. I am really stubborn.. is true... I JUST WANNA BE HAPPY...

been confuse for my decisions... wonder about future... wat can I really do.. wat can I really improve on.. wat if... all this questions are spinning in my head..


sat at mos burger, tried the new burger and then went to church for dance practice

not satisfied with my steps because I always not turn properly.. woo woo....

Share by Desley about her experiences, I was shocked that she able to make such a big decisions and all come from her faith..I really thanks God and very touch as. the words of her sharing is like God talk to me in this way when I really feel so down.. I was really down and no mood because of morning 's so happening kena scolded so badly... kena blame .. I really hate .. feel like quiting

She said:

imagine ourself is a pieceof cake , mould, fix, bake to able to be good and delicious cake .. if bake and bring it out earlier, mayb is not bake properly, inside maybe cannot eat.. so to be a better person, there isa lot of things that God want to mould the character and ppl

Must read chapter( Peter)

3/4/06

Work morning, my pt suddenly deteorite, from 15 reintubate after extubated... life full of unexpectency, I really need to treasure every moment, because really dunno wat happen next minute... I stay back late because of this , my friend was so busy with preparing for scan and go for op, because the ventricle got a lot of blood...

went home dress up, went to K's party...... she kena sabo .. but is her most happy day.. wish her stay happy and cheerful always.. her prince will protect her .. is so good that the prince is really good to her.. K ,u must treasure it o

The chalet is so fun , actually wish to stay overnight but who knows I work morning tomorrow .. so dissapointed..

went back home dozz off..

April fool

this april fool never kena fool.. haha... nobody dare to fool me huh...
working day... at HD ...with Annama. very fun to have her... morning I think my ear got problem... Dc call me to do things I also never hear... mind flying dunno where... able to manage to finish up m stuff then actually plan to gochurch on sat today but remembered that nil service as holy communion on Sunday so went up to Bugis to buy some stuff to future use and decorate my room.. is so messy if i din decorate...

Met Yuting , very happy to see her with her hubby, same age sista , but she is very mature and very happy to have her... a smile in a rain... stay cheerful and happy always... they are so compatible...we can talk lotsa things...

go back took taxi again.. dozz off..




not use to the setting... abit mabuk ready... p still ok...female p... p stable , so still can go back around earlier time... finished work at around 9.30pm plus as pt are coorpertive ... go back home around 10.30, do night so scary , really...